Louis Asher Lee

The time has come

2012-02-14T07:30:00.001-08:00

Feeling so distant away from God.. I read the bible but I do not understand.. I hear his voice but I do not listen :(

I feel super sick now.. Didn't go to work today and I am feeling very drowsy.. I am trying to fight so I can work.. But feverish 38.1 is a little harder to fight..

I'm gonna schedule down all my things tmr morning :) God bless us all

Happy birthday Louis

2012-02-13T22:36:00.001-08:00

It's today! I'm not expecting anything.. I want to go back in time that I can hug my mom.. Have a great day! Terrible start..

I am sick!

2012-02-13T22:23:00.001-08:00

Ugh.. Feeling so woozy now.. Feverish on and off.. Put it blatantly i feel like shit.. Oh well..

This weekend was one of the most epic weeks I have ever spent.. Our DG decided to meet up for movie and parade was awesome! Electives spent time with my boys and got taupoked.. I went to church for band prac.. Slept a little and we went to pick seph up.. Headed to ah huat for dinner.. Kang kong.. Fried rice.. Satay and u mian.. Spent the whole time before movie playing blind mice.. It was sooo friggin epic!! Hahaha! Went to play board games through the night and then had supper at macs..

Sunday we wore formal to church and took pictures xD had lunch at cartel and went to play super munchkin! Having that legend of the condor hero mood.. Hehe.. Bye!

My wishes

2012-02-07T07:37:00.001-08:00

It's just about 20mins to birthday.. And I just wanna pray that my family be more united and talk to each other.. No extravagant gifts.. Just some time to reflect and set changes I want for myself.. Maybe.. If D will accept that request :)

I feel like I lost touch with my kiddy side where I would play with gundams and make my own sound effectszz :(

Well.. Here's to a new and reflective 20th!

NS coming up

2012-02-06T06:01:00.001-08:00

Detail 1

I was really forcing myself to wake up this morning.. I was going to meet jk and josh to do medical checkup at cmpb.. Things weren't that smooth sailing and the stipulated time for us to meet was 745.. Turned out I reached around 8.. So we took a cab down together.. It was a very uneasy trip because we had no idea where to go and what to do.. Turned out pretty fine and we managed to complete the 7 stations.. The first was urine test, followed by blood, eye, teeth, x ray, blood pressure and finally the sort of cognitive test.. The math and physics really pulled me down.. Furthermore, I wasn't able to comprehend some instructions which I find the most troubling..

After finishing the arduous tasks, we finally made our way to lunch! We stopped by at tiong bahri plaza en route detour from our original orchard lunch plans and met a really troubled person on the bus 195.. Some girls even got off :O upon arrival we went lunch hunting and I finally got my GO card! Bought a few apps and we went for a sumptuous KFC lunch and a impromptu movie.. At the end out journey 2.. All of us were like pretty.. Wtf.. So we went to orchard to watch chronicle! Saw so many good looking people and I had alot of coffee.. Wahahah! Josh put some apple mint in my lib black and I literally was doing shots! Chronicle is really cool! But lacked in a good story plot.. We went for koi and spent quality time talking to each other.. It was really heartfelt

Took a bus home and I left my card on the bus.. I hope I can retrieve it.. Was on 167 and dropped at SSC.. Taking a shuttle bus to sun plaza to see if I can get my card back..

No luck.. The particular guy assisting was particularly useless.. He did not comprehend the things I said and furthermore.. A complete asshole.. I will want to go all chronicle on him..

POC

2012-02-05T04:24:00.001-08:00

So tired!! I realized that I can no
Longer stretch out my hours and stay awake longer than I used to.. POC was epic! Reason why I wanted to go was to rekindle my flame for bb.. And it did.. I found the spark.. But it always has been there.. My friends.. Ppl I can talk to.. On the 1st night.. Warren nick and I shared our problems and secrets with each other and I simply love it because it brings us so much closer and more intimate with each others lives.. During that time.. I exposed my crush and we did have a glorious talk cock session.. When I pulled away, I realized that Danny sir had shaped us this way... I was living and refreshed! I want to help my boys do the same as well.. Platoon 11.. U will be my call.. I just have to pray If God is letting..

Activities were brilliant.. I gutted a chicken.. We cooked it over a fire like those forest gump stories and shared so many funny stories with each other.. Running man was awesome.. Nicholas made me roll on the floor because he was eveywhere I went.. And he did was cover his face and look at a wall.. HAHAHHAAH! It was great fun :) I hoped that some others could be around for that session!

Well.. Now it really starts.. Counting the days down.. Three..

And it is done

2012-02-02T07:16:00.001-08:00

After all this while.. I've finally found out my true purpose.. I didn't want to see her fail in life.. So I have her a little incentive to do well for her exams.. She did! And i am proud of her.. Even though the disappointment. Pain and tugging.. I somehow find that soft spot to pick it up again..

We went for dinner.. Had dessert.. Bought her a pair of shoes and a bracelet thing ( 2 for my sis ) it was alright.. I talked.. Really informally.. No holding back.. The feeling was plain as water.. ( not essesntial tho ) I finally feel that I have no need to run with her.. Letting the past go wishing only she will finish the race well.. Hope you have a great life.. Friendships and relationships to be well sustained..

Breakfast

2012-01-31T21:53:00.001-08:00

Breakfast is the most important meal of the day.. And I jus feel like making my own sandwiches every morning.. Simple baguette and some ham cheese.. Lettuce and tomato.. That'll suffice.. Even a nice yogurt to go with it :) reduce stomach problems.. And keeps me healthy :D

My spending

2012-01-31T06:55:00.001-08:00

Over my internship.. I've destroyed my bank again..

New skates
New bag
New strings
New outing bag
New clothes
All the hangouts.

I've got to be more spendthrift

Gundam seed's strike freedom still is awesome! The new remastered version is wooo!

I still got to tune my piano.. Get some eq stuff.. Buy essentials for work.. But I will figure things out :)

Discipline is having to do something you should without having anyone tell you to

The last days

2012-01-31T06:53:00.001-08:00

I have to be successful, I have to get a good paying job. I need to take care of my parents and siblings, I have to act more mature, I can no longer throw loh Hei as high as to the fans, I cannot get fat, I will get weaker, my back might break, I might never meet her, I might never start a family, I need to study harder, I have to be vigilant, I have to remember things better, I must stay healthy, I must push my limits, I cannot laugh and play like a fool, I might not make it as a pilot, I can't qualify to teach, I may never get a degree, I might lose my mom, I might lose my life.

I need freedom something to escape in.. A person I can confide in.. Someone that understands the deeper meaning.. Unravel the code.

Stay healthy!

2012-01-31T06:49:00.001-08:00

Today.. I nearly shit my pants and fainted.. Stupid bah cor mee with chilli really killed my intestines.. So now I'm gonna take a vitagen in the morning and make sure I eat things that are good for my intestines :)

The beautiful dream

2012-01-31T06:48:00.001-08:00

Knowing this girl.. Made me feel so happy.. If only I did

In a sea of people, searching for someone is like looking for a needle in a haystack, he bumped into a familiar face.. Small and petite.. She called him brother although she had no blood relationship with him. She threw hugs and became very clingy and he knew she was infatuated, however he wasn't interested. Like a mastermind he lifted her on her shoulders and asked if she knew where her friend was and began to look for her.
From her height she managed to spot her friend and pointed it out to him. As he shoved people and peered through openings from people he manage to catch sight of his ideal girl. He put the small girl down and thanked her with a hug. A guy filled with love for a person, doesn't see anyone else.
He tried to make his way beside her slowly
When he did, terror and sadness struck his heart. She tried to hang herself. He lifted her from her feet and put her on the ground. Hearing her soft teary voice.. She was not straight. His heart ached.
He carried her and brought her to places overseas and to warm homes.. Yet, he never won her heart. And she doesn't even know he exists

A wise man once told me

2012-01-24T23:31:00.001-08:00

Today at work.. I was with shin.. He is totally awesome and reminds me of my ah gu.. He's a nicely built man with a very kind face which mirrors his heart.. He speaks with calm words and he said anything during lunch.. Life isn't so hard.. It's all about perseverance.. It really struck me.. I am really afraid of taking that role to hit the big teeees.. What he told me gave me courage! :$

Also, we had an awesome conversation about interviews! And I gt some insights and some tricks! Yay!

Penang!

2012-01-24T23:26:00.001-08:00

I'm back from Penang!

Gosh it was so much fun.. I the week I was gone, many things happened some delightful! And yet some very disappointing..

Had to run to catch the coach, had two servings of dinner because we were rushing thus leaving no time at all to eat.. Played with the personal tv interactively placed with every seat, toggled and experimented with it and I had to listen to my iPod the rest of the way because somehow I managed to delete every single song and video built into that tele with just the play pause remote.. Awesome.. Had a hard time sleeping because my legs couldn't fit in addition to all the cars driving past with every usable light they had to shine switched on but still got a little shut eye.. By the time I woke up, we were 30mins from butterworth.. Alighted and greeted grandma and my neighbors 6new puppies! Went to pulau Penang on the ferry, watched jelly fishes evading the giant boat.. Went shopping.. Heard dads stories abt olden time Penang.. Got reaally impressed by how dad remembers every road and short cut.. Listen to his advice to getaway ideas.. Had beef noodles.. Bought everything I needed.. Went back to butterworth.. Greeted soksok(uncle) and uncle wan tan mee.. Went over to his place.. Showered had dinner outside.. Slept well :)
Got up went to the market.. Saw nostalgic places.. Learnt a few roads.. Met Charmaine and charlotte.. Abt these 2 kids.. Knew them when try were born.. So cute and grew up with them.. Went to the most memorable trip to genting highlands with them.. Seeing them after abt.. 5years? Absolutely incredible.. Missed them
That night

Went to visit relatives at penang.. Saw my cousins.. Looked how they'd changed.. Wasted some time doing cosmetics.. Played angry birds.. Read a book.. Went back.. Watched my sisters drama.. Konked out..
Woke up to shower and soksok brought me to giant! Bought snacks and stuff.. Met this cute girl.. She got shocked when I started speaking to my dad.. Drove around to find firecrackers! Bought firecrackers.. Went to eat lok lok.. Went back for dinner.. Started playing firecrackers! Burned my feet.. Still played more! Had a drink.. I'm a lousy drinker.. Slept like a KING! Went out in the morning.. Had dim sum.. Payed respects to the ancestors.. Had lunch.. Packed an we were on our way back :)

Brilliant!

Gong ni hui fa cai or whatever the shit it is!

Hello blog

2012-01-24T23:05:00.001-08:00

Faithfulness

What I think faith is:
Belief in a God
Being loyal towards someone

Loyalty and faithfulness, are they one thing or different? On the way to celebrate the new year when I came across this thought. I can't think of a difference..

But I did think about this.. If I want to be loyal to someone.. I would really mean that I respect and love that person such that I won't want to cheat on her.. So loyalty = love. If I love God, I will no want to do anything to hurt him.. So loyalty = love and faith..

Imagine the person i really love.. I wouldn't want her to feel that I cheat or ogle at other women.. So I remain faithful because of love.. Now then. Sparks* :)

Desire

2011-12-30T10:27:00.001-08:00

It's almost new year.. I've been a really bad boy and still I was never left away from His grace and mercy.. Why..

I've had a crush on her.. Gotten over her.. And repeated it ever since that day I saw her at alpha course.. She's incredibly cute and smart! I think se jumped a year..

So how then does one peruse someone so perfect that is out if your league? At least mine?

I've been down writing stories.. Abt fragments of my dreams that I remember.. It was all great.. I wanna practice drawing faces so one day I might get to draw hers perfectly! As well as playing the piano.. My electric guitar.. Studying well.. Being a good and all rounded person so I might just have a chance to get a queue ticket to her list..

I am terrified of taking a step.. I will hate myself.. I can't make it rhyme.. But not even trying.. Oh well..

Goodnight D :)

Happy Christmas!

2011-12-17T08:59:00.001-08:00

Today we went out with gang.. It was pretty chaotic.. Had meeting in tr morning and at the evening hours everything seemed to clash.. Somehow managed to get the best of both :) wee did seem upset but I think everyone was happy in the end :)

Cute girls everywhere!! Hahaha!

See you guys soon!

It was only just a dream. Construct 1

2011-12-13T02:49:00.001-08:00

I hate the stairs.. I really do.. Looking back, I see the group of people following me as I led them up the hill to a resting shelter.

Things turned darker, the sky was a vast canvas of dark blue, shaded with emerald, glistening saphire and scars of dying warm red and orange glows. I could make out little stars as the sun began to set. I looked back down at my feet fearing of missing a step; I sure wouldn't want to etch my shin onto the jagged stone steps. Glancing down, my steps widened ; I coordinated steps planting my feet safely and away from browning puddles and leaf matter when I felt a warm tingly sensation on my right hand. It was a comfortable, soft little hand. Turning over my shoulders, I caught a smile.

Hints

2011-12-02T19:51:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I get hints to run for the bus.. But how do I know if it's jus an anxiety or Godly?

I reflected and it does happen.. God gives u a hint and let's u on the bus.. I choose to walk.. And miss it.. Human error! Or a weak faith?

Going out with warren now :)

Christmas

2011-12-01T08:09:00.001-08:00

For this Christmas I've got lots of things to get.. A capo and tuner for my guitar.. A new pillow and a bigger ceramic cup so I can drink my coffee inside :)

I am really in love with the movie you are the apple of my eye.. I think if I watches it myself I would cry and needed someone to hug me.. A small warm hug.. ;)

Snoring!

2011-11-28T00:51:00.001-08:00

The root cause for snoring is vibration of the tissue muscles while breathing. This would include palate, tongue, neck, and pharynx..

Remedies:
Alcohol to relieve muscle ( muscle relaxation)
Stay well hydrated
Change posture
Open airways
Good sleep hygiene

2011-09-14T06:27:00.000-07:00

FOURTHIRTY!!!

that's how early my body clock set me to wake up today.. surprisingly.. not bad :) i dont need an alarm clock.. my bodehh.. i s realllaayy GOOD AH! :D

went down to tampines to meet kwan siong, but there was no reply.. cannot get through.. so i really prayed.. i was angry.. why didnt God want me to go tekong ;((( so in the end i got off the cab and OFF the plans and camped at the busstop as i watched school kids go to school.. i was really worried.. a bit upset..

0530: hailing a cab across the road, the driver looked right at me and the simple gestures were enough to give him the right signals. im staying here. get ur hunk of metal to me. that was how i met the taxi driver. As soon as i got into the Cab, i whipped out my piece of shit phone and dialed KS. there was no reception. curses filled me and i was hopeful he would wake up and charge his phone (because i thought it was dead)

It was around 730 when we all met and went to the office where we took our cup of coffee and waited in the office for something to happen. i got quite lethargic and i did what came to me most with a white board. draw. that's right.. i wrote whatever i knew, i went to portray the mangroves in my head. t'was ugly. but it killed time.

0550: i reached the meet up point but there wasn't a soul (srsly) and the driver was really nice to ask if i wanted to circle arnd and helped me find the exact bus stop. in the end, 5minutes of waiting in the cab and robbing uncle of his salary was too much. i hoped off and lost 27.90 how did that happen? i think i left it on the cab.

around 9 we met our skipper to grab our stuff and went direct to site. on the boat, everyone fell asleep. my neck grew achy and something inside of me longed to see dolphins on the way there. on our stop at the kelong, i saw a familiar silloutte, it belonged to lynette, a friend o mine, we exchanged greetings and soon i was off. to a unfamiliar spring.

0600: i had probably spent half my battery on calling, but the phone is really a piece of shit. 10songs, contacts crappy. laggiest ass in the world.. functional disorders.. refuse to listen to orders.. fked up.. waited and had my warm flask of milo.. slurpped it all up. an agreement was made. if clock struck730, there was no news, i'd go home and grab my lappy and head down to Nparks. at 710, HE CAME! WOOOHOOOOO!! and off we went!!

my dad was filled with lightning and misery. morning to be exact. but when i think abt it, someone might be trying to help me flash the man awake :)

Quiet time is the only time i feel full.. really ;)

2011-09-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

I am back!

Today i really really screwed up.. i woke up at 6 and rushed down.. call KS and in the end i was too late :( i felt terrible, horrible.. i have never let something like that happen in my life before.. so i decided.. my body clock... is my backup.. i went to buy.. MY FIRST ALARM CLOCK! :DDD

so from tmr onwards.. i'll never ever ever have to be late ever ever ever again.. SUCKS TTM

well.. i went to school.. reformatted my laptop, went to bedok, did transactions, collected my PPE, went to have lunch, Bought my train concession, went back to school. thought i deserved a mcflury :) i couldve gone to the bank to do my POSB GO! card.. but t'was close.. boohoo ;(

on the brighter side.. for me.. actually.. i witnessed an ACCIDENT! it wasnt very bad... just a nudge from a bike to a car.. epic.. infront of me at traffic light.. i learn my lesson. do NOT TAILGATE another car.. no matter how good u are, u just have to be as good as the person next to u.. donno right!? don kaekiang..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENIFURR MAO MAO HAIRY HAIRY BUDDHA PALMER!

2011-08-26T11:47:00.000-07:00

Somewhere out there, there will be someone looking out the window.. wishing that someday she/he will get to meet you too :)

FINAL PAPER! RP IS OFFICIALLLIEE OUTTTT!! YAY!!!
physics however is leaving me second thoughts if i might retain.. FOR physics.. sighz max..

Celebrations however was great.. superb friends food and blessed are we to have that lil space at Empire state :)
tmr ima gonna do TICE with my buddy and Vice chairman Mr Lim Jing Kai... very proud to be his friend.. shockingly mad amounts of contacts and well relations with people.. extremely well done!

ITs not what's wrong with me.. its what's wrong with YOU.. knowing the consequences.. still again do this.. its gonna take time. you know it.. stop repeating it. seriously... u are just confused.. think before u speak

on the brighter note

Planes Planes.. pollution control.. hmmm.. ooo PLANE

2011-08-24T07:07:00.000-07:00

Ephesians 4:2
Be always humble, gentle and patient show your love by being tolerant with one another

Today i had quiet time.. and ask for strength to perservere through the night studying.. with a cup of coffee in hand.. and nothing but my armor of bound paper and weilding nothing but a pencil.. i shall conquer the depths of genomics and thrash the pollution control till 12am comes.. there i will find rest.. amongst the comfiness and warmnest of a cushionie bed wrapped around with a toasty quilt i will lie my head rested on my pillowsique, height challenged head rest to dreamland.. FOR I NEED ENERGY FOR TMR! and MARINE BIOLOGY BECKONS ME TO SCORE! RAHHAHAHAH!

Can we pretend that A747, A380, A320s and Triple 7s in the night sky are like shooting star~ i could really use a fish and chips right now~ coffee mild :D

OFF TO WORK!

YESSSS ITS A NEW LOUIS RECORD

2011-08-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

Its too early to say happy birthday to my sis.. but i have given her the present i bought :D

i was sooo tired today.. after service i went back just to find out all my relatives were coming over to celebrate sis's birthday.. oh yea.. they really hate me when i was a kid.. mommies boy.. keep crying and crying wailing screaming for mom or sis and only succumb to the power of the almighty chocolate bar... wellz.. now that ive grown up.. they look at me differently.. soo.. SUCK IT LOSERS XD !!

while i was taking a nap.. sis stormed into my room and raided it.. omg.. so pissed.. so i woke grab my stuff and went for an outraged run.. wow.. 15mins.. BEST RECORD EVER!! TYVMTYVM :DDDD complete my workout.. took a jog back.. had dinner and continued with the celebration..

gonna have the NParks interview tmr.. so needa wake abt.. 9? i have to be there at 1130.. so.. 1hour to reach.. wake up.. shower.. get some breakfast.. and then... head out by 10 or so? make my way there and find ms linda Goh.. hope it goes well.. im really looking forward to biodiversity.. super interesting!

well.. off to do some genomics reviewing..

HEHEH

2011-08-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

HELLO DIARY!

im back again! this time i dont have any pictures to post.. i was so caught up and i was really busy with studies, camps and other commitments.. well.. i've placed so much time in ministry now that i really am enjoying the company of my DG..

Today was the great renovation dinner day! first time i was stage crew! and i got to say it was pretty pleasurable.. sure bra came a wrecked havoc.. but.. i donno what we'll be without him.. hahah!

Today.. i finally know that the GOMD does exist! tall.. slim.. long haired.. nice to speak with.. English speaking and christian :) well.. just gotto look out there for the right one! :)) cant wait.. UTs are up soon.. and i might be entering Nparks for Biodiversity monitoring in the southern islands.. TICE camp is up.. and i hope to run it really really well.. :))

ALL THE BEST YALL!!

WOOOOO

2011-07-24T10:58:00.000-07:00

YESS! i feel so accomplished.. when the world (compost bin model) was crashing down.. i didnt know what to do.. though its still imperfect and i still gotto tweak it a lil.. im still glad i finished it.. in... 6hours.. :(

im enjoying a cup of warm milk and 3 chocochip cookies :D

Santa! want some?!

i learnt how to use dad's power tools! hahahah! awesome shit... and its not exactly really pretty.. its huge.. dammit.. i really regret.. fk. my teamates say bigger.. go fuck urselves.. look at the goddamn scale drawing u fucking idiots..

i dont blame them for deficiency in imagination and the thought that comes to my mind right now? is power hungry.. boss wannabe and totally no mutual respect for each other.. u want things done so badly? do it yourself!

through the process.. i kept asking myself.. WHY... am i fking doing this for them.. i dont really give a shit alr.. i hate the project.. * tip to year 2s.. if the project sucks.. CHANGE immdiately or consult ur mentor.. by far.. i have only this to say to myself.. once again.. i have proven myself to be more than a capable person.. i can easily do the project by myself..

research.. materials... so easy.. but ima taking this positively and make it a challenge.. in the real world.. oh yea..

well.. here it is :)

We start here

Calling in the BIG GUNS!

DONE!

Can see there are a few flaws and could use a few tweaks.. but not bad :D

Doesnt it LOOK GORGEOUS!

WHAMOH

2011-07-21T09:57:00.000-07:00

My nose..
a really sensitive physical organ
filled with millions of villi
capable of trapping anything greater than 10microns
helps me to enjoy smells of the world
allows me to detest the smell of some world..
allows me to taste and make my mouth waterrrr...
today.. my nose...
ran..
leaked..
bleed..
ahahahaha!!

look im busy.. i've got a life.. i need to accomplish things more than anyone of you people did.. I worked it off without complaints.. its time you shut your trap and just do the stupid thing..

Band Practice today was AWESOME!

i played Keyboard, Bass, Acoustic (role) and Electric (n.Role) :DDDD WOOO!!
ive got some serious practicing to do... next week.. talk about stepping up my game...

Monday: IG Meeting
Tuesday: Meeting with Dr Lay Peng (impt)
Wednesday: Meeting with Council (impt)
Thursday: Band Practice
Friday: EVENT (impt)
Saturday: FYP presentation
Sunday: Band (impt)

screwed..

HERO

2011-07-19T07:12:00.000-07:00

my neck really hurts.. i think its the posture i find myself waking in.. ow..

Last Night was terrible.. i had a fever with every other stupid flu symtom.. sorethroat.. cough.. nose.. uggh.. then my sis came in and on the air con.. i nearly died of hypothermia.. i was so weak i couldnt even stand up.. so i just curled up and hope to outlive the storm.. :/ spent the WHOLE entire day sleeping.. but now feeling so much betta! i think if i went for a jog i should be fine.. my body is still weak.. and im poppin woods shots and tons of panadol.. hope i can study for tmr's UT.. have a feeling ima flunk this one.. :(

come to me as a substitute again and you will breathe ur last breath

2011-07-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

Wonderous sunset.. clouds.. jizztastic

ACK... im suddenly really really sick...
nose is leaking like a leaky tap.. jus... water.. i dont know.. what kinda stupid response is that to my body.. the receptors stop functioning? cannot volatilize mucous and its all.. dripp drop?

ughh.. physics sucks.. Waste water.. :D not too bad! studied and hope it pays OFF! mmm.. went shopping.. and i know what i wanna get.. 2 shirts.. or 1.. shoes.. dark blue cotton ons.. soo comfortable.. and 2panda T-shirts :D cant wait..

ima turn in earlier tonight.. maybe after practicing a few scales and chords.. :D that's all~

Skies of Blue

2011-07-17T17:33:00.000-07:00

when i look up to the sky and it never fails to help em realise how insignifacnt i am on this planet.. my existence is just one of many..

One thing i hate most in my life is when people try to solve my problems or think i have a problem at all.. kinda feel how a woman feels.. LOL! besides that point.. i mean.. so what if i failed once in my life? you know i am the type that gets back on my feet easily.. i am an AQ Captain.. i wont be defeated so easily.. so i didnt get my PA.. so i didnt pass my driving at one shot.. but those arent the reasons why i didnt attend so many meets.. its cause i feel i spend too much time there alr.. i need time for myself.. enough of doing things that i dont like.. besides being in school.. actually i prefer school..

Well.. if you feel that you have to FIX me.. lets see you try!

Failure

2011-07-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

Despite what the title says and how horrible i am feeling now.. the only thing that is tiding me over this tough times is my platoon.. i really love you guys.. i cannot imagine life without anyone of you..

i almost cried when Nicholas said i still love you.. hahaha! awesome people..
went shopping, makan, Movie with wen which burned all the major dissapointment in me.. it'll blow off..

God says..

its not the times.. its the time.
i think.. :P

umm.. im thinking.. i have too much at one time.. its always 2girls.. 2tasks.. 2problems.. 2tests.. 2 everythings.. i need to focus on 1..

VROOM to the VROOM

2011-07-12T08:25:00.000-07:00

DRIVING TEST!

Directional Change:
Enter Spot
Center car to entree
Signal right
Safety Check
Reverse abit
Full lock right
Check Back
Straighten Car
Signal Left
Check back
Engage 1st gear
Move out
STOP AT STOP LINE

Moving Off Slope
Turn in to course
Brake
Handbrake
Slowly let go brake
Signal Right
Biting Point x2
Check blindspot
Let go hand brake
Move off
Clutch in
Brake
Stop at stop line
Signal

S-Course
Enter
Gear 1
Clutch Control
Stop At Stop Line
SIGNAL

Crank Course
Enter
Gear 1
Clutch control
stay right whilst turning left vice versa
Stop at stop line
SIGNAL

Vertical Parking
Allign car to the right
Check mirror
Signal left
Safety Check
Engage reverse Gear
Reverse till point
check Right
check mirror
Full lock Left
Check Back
Check Mirrors
Signal
Move out from shoulder and TURN

Parallel
Allign car to the centre
Check mirror
Signal left
Safety Check
Engage reverse Gear
Reverse till point
check Right
check mirror
Check until black spot
Check back
Check tyre reach yellow line
Full Lock right
check Back
engage 1st gear
turn 3rounds
turn back 1 round when straight
park properlly
signal right
Check Mirror
Check Blindspot
Move out

--- END OF CIRCUIT ---

ON ROAD
1) Keep safe Driving Distance
2) Keep Within Speed Limit
3) Change Lane ACCELERATE
4) SIGNAL NO MATTER WHAT!
5) CHECK BLINDSPOT THEN FKING TURN
6) STAY ALERT
7) SMILE!
8) Think about God!
9) Don't Anticipate Traffic LIGHT! OMG!
10) LOOK FAR! do not VEER OFF COURSE
11) DONT FKING ROLL BACK!
12) ENJOY!!!

damn.. i can write a thesis on driivng.. but execution.. holy cow.. please.. i pray for a benovelent instructor.. a kind lenient one.. with a big big heart.. for me to pass.. and i pray for road conditions to be CLEAR! PLEASE AHHHH!!!! stupid truck! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhzzzzzzzzzz ttm T-T

all the best Louis! get some rest!

2011-07-12T06:41:00.000-07:00

BWAAAHHHHRRRHH!!!

if i were a dinosaur.. that's what i'll say!

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY.. my Driving Test.. im really really afraid to fail.. its making my tummy go all woozy.. :(((( i cant afford to fail tmr.. ive got too much to lose.. T^T

well.. Yesterday.. when i was driving.. i met this omg pretty girl.. totally worth it.. i felt that really awesome melting feeling once again! ahhaahah! srsly.. i was driving and our cars were like opposing each other and it got really close when i parked the car.. i felt that the feeling was mutual.. but who am i to say? ahahaha! didnt see her today.. and i felt that im not prepared.. so ima go drill air driving.. make sure im not going to wing this but use hard work to accomplish.. its not gonna be easy.. i really hope something good can come of this..

well if i fail.. ima go msia and cry it all out to lit wen..

In Christ Alone

2011-07-07T17:34:00.000-07:00

In ev'ry Victory, let it be said of me
my source of strength, my source of hope
is Christ alone

;)

Lit Wen is FINALLY BACK!!! but i feel i have little time to spend with him.. i gotto do TICE and every other aspect to my life.. im feeling so down and tired.. but this song.. just gave me strength.. prayerfully.. i'd ask God for strength and wisdom.. <3

today i will hit the SEXTUOPLETS! PLUS ONE!

2011-07-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

YAY! lit wen is coming back alr!!!
I CANT WAIT FOR ROUND SINGAPORE KAYAKING! and and and.. i cant wait for SHOPPING :DDD but i got lost of exams coming upp..

just finished my training and my arms are still trembling.. donno if i can wash my hair.. yet alone reach it.. so shiok.. havent felt like this in ages.. feel like sprinting like crazy now.. but after.. 800meters prolly die on the floor.. XD

genomics today.. a lil hard.. i still not very sure.. :((( i need good books to read.. im a reader.. nt much of a researcher.. and i am bad at words.. lil not confident me.. parade or train tmr.. sigh.. im more towards training.. feel like leaving BB for this bit..

Being Single is GREAT!
you get to choose.. and the power of choice.. aint that bad.. aint got restrictions.. aint got no rulz :D
-Personality
-Looks
-Height
-build
-Family Background
-character
-Religion
all for my checklist.. and i am free :)

yet im always dangling with a missing half..

2011-06-28T07:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEO HYUN!

tired tired.. i think ima sleep early today.. :/
mamunology class.. was taking notes on... how he failed to pronounce properly.. tmr got FYP but ima go to bed now.. training today was.. SHIOK! :D arms gonna ache tmr..

SHIT

2011-06-26T08:11:00.000-07:00

holy crap.. i was so close to fainting today in the MRT.. shall not elaborate much.. but.. simply put.. too much surface area.. but too little sugar to the brain.. and never drink cold milk for supper and breakfast..

Today we celebrated Gideons birthday.. Prac in Church was quite bad.. but.. during service.. WOO! awesome.. <3 the band :DDD anyway.. after service we it was jus the piano.. ~happy birthday to you~ *drum Highhat 4count* TSH TSH TSH TSH! *Whole Band Comes in Happy Birthday Song (Gmajor) OMG.. damn jizz.. eveeryone was looking and laughed like crazy.. went to fish and Co to celebrate where Gideon was a total embarassment.. twas really fun :)) anyway.. we sat there ate.. talk do shit.. any nicholas untied my whole lace.. damn.. then we went to Gideons place to Jam.. SHIOK! hahahahah!

was really fun.. except i was so afraid of whiting out in the MRT.. if i did.. walau.. tall 19year old man fainting with a cake at hand.. malu ttm.. :/

Incomplete to complete the uncompleted

2011-06-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

physics.. waste water... what have u done to my brain..

i feel damn fat.. i want to go and run the crap out of it.. but i hardly have time for myself now.. i cant get up because im staying up doing loads of work till the AMs when i get to school, i drain myself too much and reach home uber late.. i feel terrible.. can i say i still have a life? would i be able to spend time with another person? i think not..

Deject reject eject REJECTS

The Game of Love

2011-06-19T01:59:00.000-07:00

saw a documentary and i found it really interesting how the 2 genders exhibit their own way of interest..

Guys:
Men have a few ways of letting the opposite gender know their interest. some of them exhibit disinterest instead of interest, they give it away doing so by their first meeting, shunning or ignoring however those are the shy ones
; some men look show interest or disinterest by simply expressing their themselves directly; the somewhat arrogant yet loyal types! last of all are the men of many masks. they play around with girls feelings by treating them really well either interested or not. the really well natured yet unable to comprehend his feelings type of guy these may portray in one guy!, these featuristics whereas some are non-hybrids :)

Gals:
Girls exhibit interest by twirling their hair and gazing into the guys eyes those are the dreamers! but i do not dare say that. there are some feminine species that are interested in the other party, however, they do not show it because they simply don't know how to or are really shy about it. (cute but misleading) lastly it speaks about the really jumpy types. they smile and listen to everything you say, laugh at your jokes but they haven't given you your stars! those girls confuse most guys because they want to know more about his stature, wealth, aspects and everything about the guy before giving you the test papers back! so beware! you might fail the test! ;)

i cant say sure about the girls part.. but on the part about guys, i feel like its sensible and... yes.. i do agree that some guys are shy even though they like to put on a mask. just look how they act.. sometimes its nice to sit aside and look at the big picture! it'll be so obvious! :D

studying.. watching 神雕侠.. aiya.. the last word is ren zi pang and 3 squares stacked on each other :D HEHE!

Music the mirror to your soul

2011-06-15T06:50:00.000-07:00

Makes me feel all fuzzy inside! ima learn this soon :) piano version first! hehe :)

2011-06-15T04:48:00.000-07:00

aiyuh.. my life is once again messed up.. but thankfully.. i have finished all of it.. but at the same time i failed in everything as well.. im not gonna ponder upon it but just concentrate on what i have in the days to come.. 34 is a bad number

CHOCOLATE

2011-06-12T07:25:00.000-07:00

bad bad bad day.. missed training because of bad bad bad weather... :(((

sis got me Choco :D YAY!
chocolate makes everything better :)

blowin' up soon

2011-06-11T11:14:00.000-07:00

GAH! I cant stand some people sometimes.. I think I might had enough of this hypocrisy.. I admit that sometimes I do put up a front because I am shy or I just want attention. now I don’t see what’s the problem in being myself.. sure I’ll be crazy and stuff and sometimes I’ll be really cold.. but heck.. that’s who I am and what I’ll be.. change? in times to come. what really bugs me is that when I try to help ppl give me that fk up answer.. I just don’t want to bother alr.. so be it.. so u know what? forgive and forget.. its not easy to smile and walk away from it.. I will but.. .!. I’m walking now

Sam’s Wedding was a brighter tone to my day.. it was so sweet.. to see 2 people get married.. its simply beautiful.. worship was fantastic.. the voices and harmony.. >< simply perfect.. reception was never better and with DG its more than anything.. we simply do the craziest shit.. Nicholas went to fill a cup of choco under the fountain and we dumped Jo’s sushi in his cup.. LOL!

after the reception we had DG and I did some physics.. 1 question.. ROFLMAO..then we played settlers! YAY! I cant believe I won! :D then we went to pick Gammie from camp and went for dinner.. RIBzzz! rocks.. had a really nice talk at café Cartel and went to watch super 8! twas’ not bad.. the story.. I find very.. :/ eee.. but I enjoyed it because I felt on a roller coaster ride of emotions.. and I tend to get frightened really quick.. oh bother.. sooo.. Gideon sent us back.. and ima putting this crap down so my hair will dry and I wont suffer migraines when I’m Older..

back to church in a few hours time! TRAINING DAY! YAY!!!

Going where the Wind blows

2011-06-09T12:54:00.000-07:00

Today there was a heated discussion on world end and how Singapore was going to fit 1million more people.. Donald's Hypothesis: ATLANTIS! AHHAAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAH! WTF! ROFL! i died laughing at the mrt station when this took place.. it was insane.. only way was to dig down.. rofl.. the thought of it just killed me..

went out today to get booties and then accompanied JK to the IT show wher he fell in love.. with Charmaine! NYP! LOL! then we went to drink tea and slacked.. talk alot of crap.. bullshit the whole day.. it was really fun.. been playing ever since.. 930? and its like.. 4am.. 65 - 70 in.. 6 hours.. dammit.. im tired.. tmr.. FYP.. going sch in.. 3 hours time :/

oh bother!

gotto get my clock right!

NIGHTS!

2011-06-08T22:02:00.001-07:00

If you're using me as a substitute.. FUCK YOU .!.

Oh the HORROR

2011-06-08T08:57:00.000-07:00

first of all..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI HAN! :DD

you are like.. 1year and 4months younger than ME! SO COOL! hahahaaha! anyway.. special birthday wish because you all came to macritchie with us and so PROMPT! :) <3s

ahhh.. once again.. that crappy shitty God Damned feeling of self resentment.. things i did.. that i felt shouldnt be done.. needa think things through :/

Anyhoos.. today.. i drove like shit.. speeding.. no signal.. doing crazy stunts.. gear.. MOUNT KERB! ROFL.. saw ppl fail their TP.. Reunited my senses to drive like sanely for.. 5mins.. and snap* taxi driver.. i really hate it when cars tail gate me so close.. damn.. pisses me off! next time.. i JAM break let them see.. hohoho! sukkaahs!

well.. after driving i went to SSC to get materials for my FYP.. popular was closed.. :( so i waited a lil till 11.. and went home to start working on my lil project.. turned out really great and im really proud of myself :D YAY! went for FYP and i cant say i was too thrilled.. in fact.. i was SOOOOO dampen because i really hated tropical composting.. DAMN! its boring.. no one's gonna buy the idea.. no ones gonna do SHIT! and there we are.. researching.. finding out designs when there are plenty in the market.. all we gootto do is give it a few tweaks and it'll be fine for the tropics! my goodness.. team.. im so sorry.. but i rather be isolating DNA and mapping a genome.. i simply love doing that.. PCR everyday! pippetting.. makes me happy :)

Oh.. one last thing.. IM SORRY I DUPED U ALL!! TEEHEE! Jesie.. i know i said i didnt finish the prototype.. but actually.. i put in alot of effort.. :) Trust me! i'll not let anyone down! when i say smth! i'll be sure to deliver!

After meeting i was headed home when i bounced into nix my brother and all those gym noobs.. hahaha! got sooo tired that i zonked out.. woke up.. ate a muffin and im.. going to play so games? hahahahah! well.. what can u do :)

TODAY ROCKS!

2011-06-07T07:30:00.001-07:00

Today was a really great day! though it started off really hectic.. warren overslept and the prep was all screwed up. woke up at 545 today and rushed over to CHR to get groundsheets.. rushed over to Yishun to meet the rest of the people and went over To Macritchie to start our Trail!

It was really fun out there together with just a small bunch and our IG members.. I really hope we can get them to stay on because they’re a really lively and cute bunch.. when I was year 1.. I hardly got a chance to retain with my members, bond with them and I only started because my seniors were really cool.. I too want to be like them so that they would be like one in the family. I wonder how I should make that happen though..

saw some really good potential in the kids.. and I enjoy seeing their faces either having fun.. when I look at someone and sees her happiness it fills me and makes me glad.. thought I could have done so much more today.. I felt I could...

My arms.. are aching… :( carrying the stupid red box is abit too much leh.. oh well.. got a good workout :D

HECTIC SCHEDULE

2011-06-06T08:26:00.000-07:00

Tmr's The Big Day!

Green Trail.. i cant say what to expect but... worse case scenarios:

People meet wrong Place
People get Lost
People get injured
People coming late
People that i have to run to entrance to find them
Food Not Prepared properly
Food Sucks Balls
Food becomes rotten
FOOD GIVE FOOD POISONING!
Games too boring
Games injure people
People complain we too noisy
People chasing us out of the place
and my ultimate favorite...

RAIN!!!! WOOOHOOOO! i'll love it.. cant say much bout the kids.. :/

oh well.. tmr..
0500: Prepare Food
0630: Leave House
0700: Collect Ground Sheets
0800: Reach Yishun MRT
0830: Wait for people to stroll in
0900: Leave on 852 to MacRitchie
1000: Start Hike
1300: End of Hike
1330:Lunch
1400: Games
1500: Pack up
1600: Buy Booties
1900:Dinner
2200: Make FYP models

08/06/11
0600: Driving
1000: FYP meeting
1500: Meeting With ORIGIN
1900: Report
2000: Genetics

09/06/11
BAND PRACTICE

10/06/11
Meeting meeting and more meetings

11/06/11
Parade!
Plant a Tree!
Wedding!
DG!

12/06/11
Play for Band!
Study!

13/06/11
Driving!
UT 1

14/06
Driving!

15/06
TRAFFIC POILCE FKIGN TEST~!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

JAC

2011-06-05T06:47:00.000-07:00

This Year's JAC was interesting,

like every other year.. something stupid will always happen.. this year.. we were walking on the expressway and we were stopped by traffic police.. omg.. first it wasnt too great.. because the officer was really serious in getting us out.. but it turned out really cool.. here's what happened:

we were setting course to bash through some building but we could not locate it and we ended up walking towards the expressway. since we could not turn back, it was better to keep walking.. when i found out we were heading towards the expressway, it was kinda too late.. i quickly took lead and brought them to safety in the grasses. i was running by the road shoulder looking for a place to go inside and that's where the police officer stopped us.

he gave us a warning and later escorted us out!! WOOO! first time in my life.. 1 police car behind and one motorbike in front.. it was soooo awesome! hahahahaha! found a small path inside and we thanked the officers and continued our way in.

Checkpoint!

safety vehicle.. AKA slackers.. rubbin it in our face

One tunnel i never knew we could walk! :D

The rest of the JAC was like other JAC.. got to talk to sec 1s.. and one junior had to be evacuated cuz he was trembling and spinning.. :/ went to ECP where our last checkpoint was and when we reach the campsite, the sec 4s, warren and i chionged for dinner! i cooked cream pasta for them and we had a really good time.. i had to depart the night because i had to play the next day.. so i left with my 3 sec4s and we like ran all the way back for a few good mileage.. it was really cool running 1 row.. and since we were all AQ captains or Ex captains.. the pace was SUPERB! i really enjoyed myself though i cant say my bag was helping.. we took a bus back and mrt following it.. when i got home, i immediately slept..

Sunday i woke up.. and i was late for practice.. other than that.. service was fine and we went to catch X-men after service with Gideon, Gam, Seph, Nick.. really cool.. cant say it was really actioned packed and jizztastic.. but twas a good experience.. the most funny part..

Charles: Good afternoon i am Charles Xavier
Erik: and I and Erik,
Logan: Go fuck yourselves
Charles and Erik looks at each other and walks away*
ROFL!

Active Alumni Award!

IT SNAPPED

2011-06-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

useless inferior cock screwups good for nothing FUCKS! CB!

Close encounter with Grim

2011-05-31T17:57:00.000-07:00

when i was going to sleep.. i felt i lost i little of my soul.. and in my dreams i was tempted by a fish to jump into the river.. however.. i didnt and continued running.. i wonder if those are signs that i wouldnt have long to live.. well.. it would be soon.. i'd be able to tell :) you can tell it in people's eyes..

what faith can do..
when world tells you that you cant, it will tell you that you can.. <3

i wonder who's willing to go Reccee with me.. i asked! i did! the initial response made my heart skip beats! but i didnt want to impose.. tho twas reluctant.. i did feel sad..

COFFEE AH

2011-05-31T08:46:00.000-07:00

GREENHORNS GREENTRAIL!

i came up with that! and i think a heirachy would be so cool.. like got some level up thing :D hahahaaha! so next time instead of year 1s.. year 2s.. we can go:
Year 1s: GREENHORNS!
Year 2s: GREENRANGERS
Year 3s: GREENCOUNCIL!

HAHAHA! or smth along that line..

Coffee.. Coffee.. Tea.. Tea.. Kopi? Kopi-O?, Kopi-O gah dai? Kopi-C? Kopi Peng? TEH LAH!

i feel that a cup o coffee gets me going throughout the day.. and i am sensing disinterest.. i wonder if i still should ask if the person wants to come.. it'll be nice.. today.. i learned alot.. and i think my notes are getting pretty comprehensive..

Texting isn't a chore.. and i wonder if im in the wrong.. im really looking forward to the upcoming nature Trail for year 1s and i even called birdie along to do some catching up.. some recreational event.. so why not.. i was thinking.. am i doing something wrong? or am i not getting the right hints..

gonna turn in early.. after some piano.. i hope Xin Yi really comes.. :))) tmr gonna plan the game forfeits and start doing preps for the food part.. Seniors goonna prepare.. so itll be prettae awesome :D okay.. i'll go for a recee on thurs.. my heart throbs..

my very loose pants

2011-05-30T08:38:00.000-07:00

im back again to fill this empty space!

today i was soo tired.. slept at 4.. prac piano like.. idiot.. learned nth much.. variations improved :)) IG meeting kept me going.. i was really anticipating a huge bunch of kiddies to play games with as well as to see V and talk to her.. but didnt go too well.. in fact it went horribly.. didnt even speak.. okay.. on my part i was afraid. caught her escaping my glances.. mutual..

The duck game was really fun and i found out that some people didnt like E too! LOL! it was brilliant.. had a mass of fun.. tho JK kept blocking me.. all i could see was PINK! dammit.. shudve pasted bigger masking tapes.. after that we had dinner @ martins.. and the cake that was left behind without anyone eating was made into a forfeit for games! it was SO DAMN FUN! hahahahahaah! laughed my balls off.. we first played missin no.. eat like crazy.. CH.. idiot!! i was 1st to go and he was like...
Louis: Okay.. i thought of it. START
CH: okay.. errr.. ELEVEN!
Louis: O-O
Warren: AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
Louis: you dumbfk.. eat the cake! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!

omg.. stupid.. then it carried on.. then we played i say fold.. sooooo FUNNY AHHAHAH! if it were all guys.. it'll be hillarious... ROFLTTM.. hahahaha! discussed some stuff.. came home play piano and now gonna do TICE events till prettae late.. :( well.. tmr.. COFFEE!

2011-05-29T18:05:00.000-07:00

LITWEN! <3 you and cant wait for you to be back :)

ELLOz my dear page of HTML CODES!

today i friggin woke up late for church. i like ran out of the house because had band practice.. and in the end.. the BAND WASNT THERE! ONLY ME AND DRUMMER! we had huge problems together in the morning finding people to replace.. the band members were working at sundown and it ended late for them.. so it was a pity.. frm 6am end become 830.. and prac was at 830.. one reason why i was late was DG, we watch pirates of the Carribean! SO AWESOME! ASTRID IS PRETTY :))) well.. i practiced like crap to fill in th electric guitar.. but didnt work out nicely.. so we kicked it acoustic version.. and with just Abigail, Moses and I, acoustic, drums piano.. it was not too shabby... Band members dont feel bad you cant play and sam kinda got pissed at you guys for being late.. I STILL LOVE YOU! MUACK! i hold nothing against you! although i was sooo nervous! so afraid i'd screw up.. and i did.. -_- 1st song.. 3wrong chords.. OMG!

after service, i went home straight and slept.. MISSED TRAINING! NOOO!! soo.. inevitably.. i stayed home caught movie with dad and sis.. then i did the unthinkable.. maple.. my evan is LVL 70! WOOOHOOOOOOOOO!! IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF :))) anyhoos.. ive been hearing talk that teachers wanna speak to me.. BUT I AM FINE! i just need some time to renew myself.. i still love my platoon 10 and platoon 4 have been supporting me all this while.. im not gonna give up so easily

had alot fun talking to verlin.. she's a really nice girl.. who surprisingly does mandarin really well :O i cant really understand.. but.. oh well.. :( i try.. ahhaah! today IG and im gonna go for a nice night workout before i sleep today :) or not.. hehe!

Before i leave.. just this song.. i heard in the morning.. made my day <3

Love Affair

2011-05-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

Wow.. i am so TIRED!
i know that i constantly rattle about high my fatigue level is.. but i don't find a day where i can find my self saying.. ahhh.. so relaxed today.. well.. i don't regret it :) im living my life to it's fullest.. cause i know i dont have long to live :)

Thing's really started when i went for DG.. today we continued talking on revelations.. but before which we had dinner at yoshinoya with Nick, Jo and Seph.. the counter girls were cute and laughed at us.. cuz nicholas damn stupid.. went to Music room and played some games then Ching Kit came and we headed to youth room.

started our usual thing and i found myself taking back these lessons.. i should know what is right and what is wrong and DONT do what is wrong.. also as we were sharing out days, i reflected on this.. i always say i love God.. but what exactly does it mean? i tried placing someone in the picture.. and surprisingly i came up with these answers,

To Love someone:
i want to spend as much time with her as possible
i want to make her happy by pleasing her
i want to share my joy and pain with her
i want to listen to her telling me things
i want to go out with her and share experiences with her
i never want to let her go

replace her with God.. now that's something..

i came up with this analogy.. we are all pieces of a puzzle.. a riduclously big one.. some of us might have cut and protrusions as a piece and we variate the protrusions and cuts.. but these in turn helps fit another persons piece. in that we fulfil a bigger picture. some of us are almost whole but missing a few pieces, may it be a girlfriend, a puppy, something that makes us more filled and the puzzle can be really difficult to piece.. finding the piece is hard.. just like sometimes we think its right.. it fits somewhere else.. sure we get upset.. but we see another picture of the whole puzzle piece.

well.. life is full of lessons.. loving someone isnt about the good times we share.. but more of how the two people are willing to accept their differences and build on them.. that will build a stone bridge..

caught pirates of the Caribbean.. and the mermaid was soooo pretty! omg.. X/ i dont say these kinda things.. but she's amazing.. called my sister at 230am to fetch me home and now we're about to head out again.. after that.. back home.. shower again.. pack my stuff.. go church for band practice.. eat breakfast.. play for service.. eat lunch.. come home put down my stuff.. go for training.. come back, study.. and go to bed.. weekend burned.. i need something interesting.. :(

Coffee.. don't fail me now..

The 'i'll never do it again' feeling

2011-05-27T12:49:00.000-07:00

when i see you my heart skips a beat, when i see your replies i tend to get on my feet.
now things aren't what they turned out to be, i just feel that queasy feeling again.. just like when u know you're gonna break up.. i dont want it to end so soon.. i really felt right this time..
V

2011-05-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

song for the night :)

Time to get my week really started.. or should i? i have no purpose to go parade tmr.. i want to find out what would happen to parade if i wasnt around. very likely tmr's case.. i find its about time too anyway.. ima MIA for awhile.. im sorry my lil platoon 10kids.. i'll see u guys around and i'll still check on you rascals..

School was alright.. but playing in class isnt very good.. esp with those havoc people.. im really looking to monday.. i made the helmets alr.. and i cant imagine the catastophy or fun. its like flipping a coin.. mmmm.. that's all i have in my mind right now.. praying for the right things to happen at the right time ;)

2011-05-26T17:46:00.001-07:00

I'm Sharing a lift with a bug.. and i've yet to connect to wireless@sg :D hehe!
anyway.. something awesome for the morning.. a cup of coffee, looking for newer blogskins.. and.... KUTLESS! :DD

2011-05-26T10:44:00.000-07:00

fatigue.. how i wish it wasnt real.. if only we can overcome it.. once again.. im up.. doing crap at night.. and playing games with DENV ppl.. hahah! Genomics was so fun! i learned so much! francis lim.. funny guy.. had lunch and after UT which was really easy.. i went for band prac and came home.. fix piano.. play piano.. study Genomics.. play game.. and now im going to bed :)

I wish i could talk to you but my half introversion is preventing me from that.. further more.. im afraid...

Hoping for a fun monday :)

2011-05-23T17:32:00.000-07:00

Hello Earthlings!

As of now i feel so much lighter.. more than ever before.. i have graduated into the elder's Council and soon to pass on my CLP (company leading Primer's) position to the next generation. though i wasn't able to achieve the presidents award, i felt like i crumbling at some time. however, there are always things like my discipleship group, platoon 4 and really great friends that i have that cheered me on :)

Saturday was AWESOME! went for parade, taught adventure lesson, went to church for band prac and went back with Nicholas to grab his stuff then he came over and we took a nap on my bed till DG started. we went to church and watched 3movies about revelation.. Goodness.. we all like died at the 3rd movie.. 5 FRIGGIN AM! hahahahahah! but it was so fun.. we still wanted to practice.. but fatigue was too much for 6scrawny lil men. except Nicholas.. FATBOY! AHAHAH! so after lying down we realised we couldnt sleep.. so we play pictionary.. ROFL!! AHHAHAHA! nicholas and i were like.. GODMODE HAHAHAH! we can simply read each others mind regardless how ugly the drawings were.. HEHHE :D then mo came back from his trip home and he drove us for breakfast.. jizz.. we were soooo havoc.. came back and went to shower with nick, then we practiced till about 10 then we went for coffee at ah huat.. after which we went to power nap in the music room.. Worship was really great i had to say :) went back and missed training because i was soooo tired :( FAT AWAY!!!

IG welcome tea was really unexpectedly great! i met some really nice people and i cant believe i remembered 1/4 of people's names.. really fun :) got to talk to 1 member which i later found out was from year2 and she's really very nice.. hope to get to see them more often !

Wee and i spoke ytd after soooo friggin long.. felt really good after so long.. but it wasnt like the other times.. damn wee.. u shower for centuries i swear.. FYP is really time consuming.. UTs are up.. JAC is round the corner and TICE is one heck of a headache.. aft program done.. gonna get manpower.. hope VLYH can help :)

LAB! gtg!

Penning Down Feelings

2011-04-11T08:37:00.000-07:00

Its been so long since i have last done this,

today has been one of the most emotionally stirring day.. in Louis Language:

People tend to show disinterest and affection at times when they should or shouldnt, i cannot understand your language.. venusian.. i dont know if your in or out.. im keep getting wrong signals.. at times.. i remember the restriction and i really dont want to complicate things.
Everyone deserves a good listening ear.. i am oblivious to how i am. when it comes down to things i have done for so long, i will think i am right.. i pray for wisdom and people to tell me that i am wrong.. i should listen.. nicely.. sweetly and ever so caringly.. i really hope that in my time.. i will learn how to be a better leader.. i am horrible at it.. i can learn so much more.. i take back what i say.. but im glad we established something today, i too learnt something today.. it was a Great.. awesome Bad day.. but effectively i learnt alot.. thank you!

AIISHH!!! BOHYAH! will you just speak HUMAN! sometimes i feel like I'M the VENUSIAN and YOU are the MARTIAN!

today.. we went KBOX! and my bestfriend woke up late.. i became immune.. deep inside.. it really cuts me.. everytime.. i know what's he's capable of.. and he really is great.. just that.. soft rectangles are super effective.. still.. we shared our footlong subs.. and sang westlife till we felt our voice boxes vibrate to a pitch where it sounded like banshees.. totally cool! went to get my flight stick and throttle and learnt my first lessons! intrumentation, ATC, buttons, pitching and landing! i kinda crashed landed.. everything broke.. hahaha!
meeting was a fruitful one.. i learnt alot of lessons which i feel apologetic and imperfect.. i still have so much to learn and to do.. i feel like i cant do this anymore.. i really want to give up.. EVERYTHING i hold.. its getting too heavy for me.. i dont know if i can count on Nicholas.. everyone else is too Distant.. i cant feel God.. crumbling down to tears.. but i really want to do this for God.. i dont want to be a give upper.. i wanna face it and fight till i die.. but how much more beating can i take..
Guys.. i know i can be very egoistic.. and i can be insensitive.. i want to change.. help me to.. accept me and teach me.. i will grow like the stick i alrd am..

no i am not watching porn.. i am simply flying my new simulator!

2011-02-19T08:53:00.001-08:00

Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8
:)

hey Girl, i hope ur doing well and not stressed abt JC, maybe we can talk again in the future.. really want to but.. feel's wrong to

2011-02-07T07:58:00.000-08:00

she's more cheered up now :)) just a few minutes to my birthday.. i wonder who will wish me first.. :) dugun dugun

2011-02-07T04:45:00.000-08:00

yeah! im finally back and done with most of my work.. next up is UT 3!

Penang was totally awesome.. i had so much char kway teow but i still want more.. fireworks and firecrackers were just unbelievably fun.. some could fly some exploded some were simply magnificent.. but all damn friggin loud.. i lost a piece of eardrum when i lit all 3 fireWORKS at one time..

Last night i dreamt abt froggie.. so weird.. but really nice :) and Inneke was just really mad/ angry/ upset.. she didnt really wanna talk to me and said changed.. it always ends up like this.. people change.. and you just dont like them anymore.. then how do i be the same?

well.. tmr's 1 step closer to the big double decade.. and i just dont feel really psyched abt celebrating my birthday.. just feels... Birthdays Dont matter.. its just a day when i got born and i think i shud celebrate birthdays by celebrating my parents.. for bringing me up ever year.. supporting me throughout each year and year again.. :/

pessimistic

2011-01-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

I cant believe after thinking so hard whether or not to text i got some crappy reply.. talk about anti climax.. but what the heck..

I'll be leaving my last post here until i return from penang.. and just when i thought of getting right with Regina.. im gonna miss talking to Inneke :( well.. tmr.. \

1900 School Research and presentation
1430 Meeting and Lunch with 11th Coy Band
1700 Meeting With TICE Eco camp main committee + Dinner
2200 Head down to alpha Chalet to run program

0600 parade sending
0800 alpha revellie
-
1700 BBQ (Alpha)
2300 Rush Home
0000 Finish packing

0400 Changi Airport
0700 Flight to Penang

See ya in a weeks time :)

or never..

2011-01-26T05:54:00.000-08:00

WOW..
i just wrote my will.. hope no one will get the chance to read it..

i dreamt i was on a plane a it crashed.. time really stopped and slowed down.. but i realised i was on my fluffy pillow hugging my SQ pillow.. snugged in my blankie.. no wonder dying felt so... AUUSSUMMZ! ROFL!!

i yet to write my first book and my comic strip.. :/ my comic BOOK!!! HAHAH! :) stix! :PPP

2011-01-26T03:28:00.000-08:00

WOOO!!! I HAVE TIME TO WRITE DOWN MY THOUGHTS!!! FINALLY!!!

i realized once saturday hits.. my whole week is just screwed up.. but i love it!
Saturday morning went out for breakfast @645am with warren, mel and fiona.. awesome bah cor mee :)
was DP for the day and i was kinda nervous when i had to command the whole parade.. GB and BB.. thank God she wasnt there... phew.. then AQ came.. had to teach some kids how to micronavigate and then test the seniors to see who is capable of navigation and who to put as supreme navi of the AQ teams.. lunch was.. bah cor mee again.. and i went to FCBC! wooow.. awesumzz.. and i finally talked to Jade after procrastinating so much.. alot of reasons.. :/ it was soooo funny with my DG and i LOVE GREENTEALATTE @ STARBUCKS!! gotta have MORE!!! AHHAHAHA! then also.. we cramped in Gideons' car and did the usual tardedness..

dont cry over spilt milk? what about coffee?

Sunday was a whole new level of church.. first of all.. we woke up @ 6.. AGAIN! to attend Anglican service.. and it wasnt all that bad! i kinda enjoyed it.. talked to sharlini and made some friends? LOL! gam, nick, seph and I hungout.. slacked arnd church till our service started and.. damn.. the whole hall flooded.. and i got really hungry to nicholas dragged me out to eat :D then we lepak in music room and went back when sermon ended cuz we didnt want to barge in the whole crowd... HAHA! iknow it seems we just wana slack.. BUT HECK! I PRACTICED DRUMMING! XPPP lunch was awesummz as usual.. and i went back home and slept like.. a few hours.. got up.. did some prep for Alpha and went to bed..

Monday was pretty... suckish.. genetics.. didnt really understand.. kinda practicing my CSS skills and we kinda ended there.. got pretty pissed when my bro skipped school.. say school all not condusive and cannot learn better off learning at home.. playing runescape.. yeah right.. i love my brother.. i just dont want him to be a fking useless lifeless ill diciplined outlaw..

Tuesday.. Dom was still at home.. got so pissed off i stormed in my room and started jamming my E-git out loud.. texted my bestfriend in the world to talk some sense into him because once again.. my proneness to throat cancer just went up a notch.. cant live without chilli.. :( inflammation.. FML.. but i stil had like.. curry rice and chicken rendang for lunch ROFL!!! slept abt 11 after sending e-mails.. texts and all that crap..

Today! was AWESOME! Love AI.. my facilitator is SOOO SWEET! AHHAHA! i dont have a crush on her.. ?? LOL! learnt about NMR.. which stands for nuclear errr... magnetic.. err.. resonance.. hahhaahha!!! YESS!!!! all about reading the peaks and analyzing the molecules seeing how many neighbors they have and deducing the chemical shift and proton shielding.. damn.. so cool right? i wanna make a game called Mol E cule :D hahahaah! had some insane CSSing today.. like wiitmack, Yat =D, RoXor, ahdu, ernest and christopher columbus oh and there was iusetouchpad once in awhile.. ROFL ttm.. as usual... TOP FRAGGER!! but im considered noob.. omg.. tactical man!!!

wells.. the post is like frigign long.. and i still donno if i shud text or not.. what if that person thinks u finally out of my life now u appear!? WTF IS UR PROBLEM!? or WTF!! U DIDNT WISH ME?! .!. YOU CBKNN! kinda 2 situations.. both... equally harsh and uncalled for.. ima gonna watch spongebob and plunge my head in ice..

INNEKE :DDDD love chatting with that lil kid.. hahaha!

2011-01-19T07:35:00.000-08:00

GAHHH!!! im so tired...

today we had an awesome time in schoool.. COUNTER STRIKE SOURCE BABY!!! well.. Donald, I and Yat were teamed together and we like had SUPER MUCH FUN! that doesnt make sense... but whatever!!!

CSS:
Game Initialize : De_dust> CT_join, > Bot_add_T, >Wiitmack has joined the game, >YAT =) has joined the game: RED TEAM : 3 BLUE TEAM 13

Christopher Columbus: team move out,
Wiitmack, YAT =) : Roger That

Christopher Columbus: Fire in the hole! FLASH
YAT =): WALAU WEI!
Christopher Columbus: OMG! Tunnel towards BSA! FLOOD!
YAT =): Fire in the hole! WOOOO! I FRAG!
Christopher Columbus: Fire in the hole! HAAHA! GOT DEAD BODY FLY TOWARD ME! AHAH!!
Wiitmack: Covering Fire! Advance Advance!
*crosses DD Tunnel
Christopher Columbus: Enemy Spotted! SPRAY!!
YAT =): EH! WHO IS THAT!?
Wiitmack: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
Christopher Columbus: Yat! not you?! BBFFAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!
Wiitmack, YAT =) Christopher Columbus: WAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!
Christopher Columbus: HAHAHAH! OMG!! YAT I TOT YOU SIAL!!!
Wiitmack: Louis! i tot it was you! but then u alrd in front then WHY THE GUY GOT HELMET?
Yat =): YAH SIAL!! WHAT THE TOOT ! HE JUST WALK FROM BEHIND US!

Stupid AI bots.. 3 of us couldve been annhilated there and then.. but that goondoo just happily stroll down with his Magnum and still can walk past Donald, move away from Yat and stand infront of me.. ROFL TTM!

2011-01-18T06:27:00.000-08:00

I felt really good walking home today.. felt the breeze and that grassy smell.. made me feel so happy inside.. it was mommentary but i would give a day just to feel that awesome feeling again for just 1 minute..

tmr exams up and i have to prepare myself for more sleepless nights as CLP is gonna work my butt off..

Inneke! hahaha!

i feel like some ppl hate me.. i dont know why.. she's so hostile...
why am i always ripped apart by 2 ppl.. gahh,, sucks..

i wanna study hard just like seohyun :)

2011-01-17T07:06:00.000-08:00

Wisdom:
earthly wisdom - Divine Wisdom

Gideon say's Wisdom is the application of knowledge and can be used in:
-family problems
-relationships
-choices in life

i feel that i should have that...

balance my life just like this 2 soft boil eggs from toast box on sat morning.. <3

anyhoo.. parade was awesome.. my whole saturdays are always burned from morning 430am-0000 because of band practice and all.. and i found myself sleeping the whole day of sunday just to catch up with sleep i have lost the past few days.. :(
i wanna go church.. i keep missing it.. ima set alarm.. SO COLD THESE DAYS!!!

i miss vietnam.. i miss some people.. i wanna go back.. ;(

2011-01-15T08:33:00.000-08:00

CLP effective of today!!!
Glad so many primers turned up.. so awesome :)

During band practice.. nicholas... epic.... i laughed so hard for 30mins.. i thought i would have died of laughter...

Drums: TAKA TAKA!*
Acoustic,Electric,Base,Piano: ALL YOUR PROMISES WONT LET GO OFF ME! Pull off*
Nicholas ( Worship Leader) : Coughs Coughs*
Acoustic: haha
Worship Leader: AAUUUGHHHHLLLL*
Acoustic: hahahahahahahahahaha!
Acoustic: Looks at Electric*
Electric: O.O OMGWTBB?! HUH?!
Acoustic: WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHFUUFUHAHAHAHA!!!

while acoustic guitarist rolls on floor.. dangerously close to the vomit*
Electric: You okay anot?
Worship leader: I think i vomit abit
Bass: eeee.. what u eat just now?
Worship leader: i think its just water and some gastric juice:
Electric: My mike got kenna anot?!
Acoustic: AHHAHAhAHAHAHAH *GASPS* AHAHHAHAHAHWHAHAHAHFFUFFHAAHAHAHA!
Bass: Takes toilet paper ans cleans*
Worship leader: i think i cough too much until vomit.. oh shit.. i vomit on myself
Acoustic: W-H-A-T-T-H-E-B-O-N-G-B-O-N-G!? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *CRIES* TvT

uhh.. i too tired alrd.. even when u type this out im laughing so badly..omg.. i wanna sleep.. i need a hug.. Gideon's expression was priceless...................... like half.. ehh? did that just happen? half OMG! my MIKE!

AHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHROFLTTMLOLAHAHAHHALMAOTTMAHAHHAHAHA!

2011-01-14T08:16:00.000-08:00

Alpha course
Gaming in class
Weird Dream
awesome day ahead..

2011-01-13T08:30:00.000-08:00

Cheer up Changyen!!! once you're done with ur award rmb to tag me in your AWESOME PHOTO!

talking to chang i felt so nostalgic about things that happened around me and started to miss platoon 4.. where we'd always have amazing outings to like.. everywhere... making havoc.. public nuisance and creating a scene wherever we go.. i rmb those adventures we had in the middle of the night and i look through my photos.. it was mostly them.. i really cant imagine life without knowing those people.. they gave me the passion for boys the way i felt.. they changed me.. and i do want to do the same for my boys..

We were once no more than 150when we came in.. we all came in in pairs.. Nicholas - Louis, Jonathan - Darren, Warren - Andre, Benjamin - Mangalam, Jackie - Seng chye Lit wen.. we were all from different Levels.. E, NA, NT.. but still we felt like we'd known each other for years.. we shed tears.. shared joy, celebration and even loses.. but we always have each other.. united as one.. 2by 2 we came in.. a wall of friendship we built.. anger, saddness, conflict all were not strong enough to push us down.. over 4 years p4became one.. <3 u guys!

2011-01-12T07:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BB DAY :)

went to CCSS really early like 6am i was in the canteen and we made prep for the parade in the morning.. practiced the colour party and did some final touches.. fiona danial and zang teng came which made things really nice because i felt i wasnt alone :)

went to school after that and played piano in the library with warren.. in D.. LOL! falling slowly.. :) Lab session was.. COOL! we made like aspirin pellets.. AWESOME MUCH! use spectrometer to find the absorbance and had to do the whole lab report by myself despite 1hr of sleep.. but still managed to do it..

Soo pretty!

went home straight and SLEPT! LOL!

Seohyun and Simple plan craze!!!!

2011-01-11T07:03:00.000-08:00

Tuesday was a screwup.. i love tuesdays.. tuna subs.. but this particular one SUCKS

felt so crappy this morning and it was like something suppressing my breathing.. woke up at the wrong side of the bed kinda day.. got drizzled upon while walking to school..

my dear Boy OZT.. didnt make it to RP.. and his DPA got rejected/cancelled.. i was there with him this morning and i really hope i could do more if i didnt have school.. lab session was a little conflicting because there were too many leaders and i thank my tumbler for the hot choco..

chocolate just.. makes everything well.. lunch was warm and toasty and after school.. i went for a violin concert @ TRCC.. IT WAS ORGASMIC!!! i have no other words to describe.. there was plucking, harmonics and chords which was OUTOFTHISWORLD! i nearly jizzed in my pants.. i so wanted to cry and shout scream wail and ROF.. omg.. superb.. pianist accompanying the violin was great too..

i feel like i've disapointed loisa.. i read the email wrongly and missed the dead line.. i didnt READ properly.. that's whats wrong with me.. mistakes always happen because i like to know it all and skip through them.. sighhh.. AI UT was not as depressing.. but i felt my points werent strong enough.. frankly.. i havent been following my schedule and HOLY CRAP! GENETICS ON THURS!!! DIE!!!

Cammy.. i miss you :(

gonna mugg now.. :(

2011-01-10T06:06:00.000-08:00

Drenched on the way to school
Drenched on the way back home (mostly self inflicted)

i really love rainy days.. and when the rain isn't heavy i like walking under it.. its like really good to think while the drops slow touch you.. like a whole new sensation.. also it brings back memories on how i developed a phobia for something...

well.. i think im gonna change my statement of hating fat people.. i have nothing against fat people ( except i like to see how they move, how they take more than one seat, smell funny, eat alot, perspire alot and how they talk.. its like.. their chins inhibiting them from making vibrations and they always sniff sniff like some blocked cavity of layered lipids..) anyhoo.. i find what's disgusting is because they really waste resources.. but the point is.. sometimes.. un-fat people do it too.. and i don't see why i should hack the prosperity from those well rounders.. instead.. i will try rubbing their tummies and putting my fingers into their belly button and shout : HUAT AH!!!

Genetics today was a total.. no words.. did finger printing.. and i have girl fingers.. lowest TRC in class pl0x..

2011-01-08T23:46:00.000-08:00

WOW! i have slept for..18HOURS!! :D

had recruitment ytd and only slept.. 2hours.. met warren for breakfast and went to school.. saw some familiar faces and some of them grew :) esp my kids.. hehe..

went to dinner with DG and had like a smalll jammig session at church and went home..
slept ever since then..

had an amazing dream :)

super powers.. dramatic situations.. awesome special effects.. lovely mango cake :) HAHAH!

today.. im gonna finish studying AI.. T^T dies*

wish me luck

2011-01-07T08:09:00.000-08:00

Jus finished alpha and i am really tired.. living on coffee.. i really need to sleep.. but i also hope to talk to some ppl.. mom made me some noodles.. so yum yum :) 99.9% healthy! chicken soup! with vege and BAH COR!!awesome much.. chilli padi would be the best combi.. but i got sore throat and coming down with a flu.. so :((

im gonna talk to warren bout tmr;s recruitment and i pray that we would have an awesome quality and quantity of platoon 10!! my 1st platoon taken and taught by yours truly :) so excited to meet u all!!!

2011-01-07T00:24:00.000-08:00

i realised if u just keep ur legs moving and look at the directions you're going.. u dont have to pu-sing :)

really awesome funny day in class.. cant believe i survived.. i receive ur pokes.. but ur never online.. what's up with that?!

i even came up with all the lyrics :)

ohh.. my eyes my eyes mustve been so blurry when I first saw you
make up make up really working wonders to put that on you
you were beautiful when I spotted you that day

ohh.. I know I know when she got closer I couldn’t believe it
this ho this ho had a face that she got beated
but every time she turned around walked away I say

when I see your face! *FACE :(((
theres not a thing I would not change
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly
and when you smile
the homies get scared for awhile
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly

her toes toes they look so crusty stinky and madashhy???
Her tits her tits she show’s them off but they’re so saggy
She smells like booty hole..
And I tell her everyday
Oh you know you know you know you know I never ask u to take
If somehow we were both somewhere I’d ask u to pay
And don’t.. try to kiss me cuz I’d much rather be gay (SHRIEKS*)
You KNOW I SAY!!!

when I see your face! *FACE :(((
theres not a thing I would not change
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly
and when you smile
the homies get scared for awhile
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly

afar~ afar ar ar~
you were amazing.. only from afar~

2011-01-06T07:28:00.000-08:00

ThispostisforInnekeKemal

HEY KIDDY!
you've been so nice to talk to me everyday! and u sleep the same hours as me.. so nice of you.. HAHA!
evn tho you've just turned 14 and celebrated ur birthday.. u still bother to chat with me abt princesses and give me weird quizes and make me laugh.. Thank you!

THANK YOU INNEKE! :)

2011-01-06T07:19:00.000-08:00

Im soo totally gonna study now.. till.. 3am? maybe?

i dont know why.. i havent the motivation or the drive to really study.. maybe its my table? maybe i'm just to crappy or its just something bugging me.. there's this feeling that i want to avoid studying.. i dont know why..

school was great.. SHWM..kinda boring but research done everything and proposal was up in like.. 2hours? so i was watching princess diaries 2.. in love with Anne Hathaway <3 she's so pretty.. innocent.. sweet.. err..stops*

armed with my tumbler loaded with hot chocolate from vietnam.. here we go.. problem 5-9..

2011-01-05T09:45:00.001-08:00

HAHAHAH! Inneke made me do this.. go ahead and try..

READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY

Inneke Kemal says (1:11 AM):

*Prepare a piece of paper and write 1-10..

1&2 write ur fav num from (1-11)

3&7 write the name of your opp gender

4-6 write the name that u think important to you

8-11 write songs name

1:11~!!!! AHAHHAHA!

its 4 TO 6!!!

i shall give the answers tmr night :))

2011-01-05T07:23:00.000-08:00

Luv this small cup.. can play shots :)

Today's one is gonna be real short..

Inneke has been talking to me alot after a certain incident and i am quite thankful for her.. as well as CSM.. incredibly thickskinned midly awesome midget..

today.. i slept while watching a video waiting for class to start.. omg.. went back home straight and wanted to study! however.. i watch princess diaries and had seaweed.. when i started studying.. i ended up doing my tumbler.. and I LOVE IT TTM!!!

God has been so good to me.. i cant understand why he loves us so much.. i just cannot comprehend.. in his ways or whatever.. i will be like a lion.. fearless of nothing for i have the word as my roar, prospects as my claws and christianity boldly worn and shining like the mane :)

srsly.. addicted to THIS

i think im too deep.. till the extent of retardedness..

2011-01-04T08:57:00.001-08:00

Mixed fruit cake
Crap icing
with a cherry on top

1 person would have a slice of this

2011-01-04T07:31:00.000-08:00

Feel awesome after gyming today.. but really tired.. im gonna study abit for AI and then sleep by 12.. tmr need to study alot.. mugging.. here i come!

in class today.. rDNA.. friggin killer... talked about plasmids, cosmids, phagemids YAC plasmids, fasmids and the base pair of restriction enzymes and inactivation of proteins when the plasmid becomes a recombinant.. still dont understand what i'm talking about.. just terms..

In my module briefing.. i felt terrible.. i feel that RP though it being so good and the people really nice.. yet our standing still sucks.. why? because its new? because ppl die and started the influenza? i do admit there are some really bad people... but still.. SAS rocks.. the nerds and niceness of my classmates, level term and facilitators.. some are HOT! feel really hopeful to go for and attachment to someplace that i can benefit from.. i hope NUS, overseas, or some places where i can get hands on and do research.. universities dont exactly take RP studs.. pfftt..

talked to Nicholas and he said he saw that coming.. if he KNEW! he shudve told me.. asswipe.. but me nicholas my brother and his brother had an awesome dinner at subway and had lots of fun..

right now.. i just want to exculpate myself.. i really hope 8th feb isnt playing payback.. i mean.. okay fine.. i'll go with it.. dont want to do anything alr.. felt i have done enough.. these kinda things just dont work even tho i got experience..

2011-01-03T18:20:00.001-08:00

im so gonna get fever.. i can descry that crappy feeling alr.. throat inflamation! FML! porridge all the way~!

2011-01-03T09:14:00.000-08:00

I never knew that kindness and being nice could be so destructive.. i should just stop right? throw the soft wussale me away.. things wont change by themselves.. neither willl time.. go apply alcohol.. intense..

weird.. scary.. backstabbed.. guessing.. betrayed.. cant tell 8feb from 27jan

FML

2011-01-03T07:01:00.000-08:00

There's this saying: Hot guys are not nice, Nice guys are all ugly and crappy.. Hot and nice guys are rare..
it's not that they are a endangered species.. it just doesn't pay to be nice.. of course not speaking of in monetary terms but srsly.. ask me to choose to be hot or nice? i rather choose hot. guys that are nice are simply taken for granted and after awhile.. things just dont work out for them.. what do they get at the end? wasted efforts? heartbreak much??

i hate being tested.. not just exams.. but put to test.. not that i don't believe in myself but more of what to do during the whole process.. however.. turn it around? i'm just another guy behind that table waiting to hit the buzzer with more than what of simon cowell..

I've been wanting to get right with God and today i did.. i did a proper quiet time with him.. and i felt so good :) but after awhile Xin Yi had to crush it with reality.. damn you woman! got so many things and now i'm not confident of getting PA.. there's so much to do.. and i ain't sure what to do.. gona write reflections.. ask for testimonials soon.. maybe by 1st feb..

i did my scedule for the month of Jan.. so.. i don't think i'd be available anytime soon.. but squeezable :)

felt terribly crappy in school.. i was so tempted to partial and go home just to sulk at my life.. but after coffee.. everything just started reverting back to normal.. i could get use to this.. but sadly.. i can descry that ima get throat inflamation due to the spamming of Chilli within the past 48hours.. like 10chilli padies, donno how many saucers of chilli sauce.. more chilli snacks and everything just revolves around.. maybe tmr.. i'll cut down.. i'll hit curry instead :DDD

so gonna decorate my tumble.. and im gonna study soon.. well.. i don have what it takes to talk to ppl yet.. BUT I KEEP DREAMING about that person.. YIKES! scary.. and some person aft donno what happen didnt reply alr.. i guess its a girl thing?

GYM TMR!!

2011-01-02T16:52:00.001-08:00

Waiting for the day to get over..

recently i've been thinking alot abt some person.. but we never talk.. weird much..

2011-01-02T09:12:00.000-08:00

toilet shot!

Time will hit you like a rock hurling from the top of a highest building.. it really hurts.. its nerve wrecking to know that you're one year older and new responsibilities closing deadlines and more exposure to the real.. harsh.. scary.. evil.. engulfing.. and the heirachy of all that just makes it look like a bigger monster..

i was so tired i overslept and i had to cab down in a mercedes to get to prac on time.. breakfast was so filling and satisfaction was.. *MUACKS* church was alright having concentrate on other ppl sleeping than the sermon. but it kept me awake.. the proceeds were bubble tea and home for ben 10 marathon on dad's bed..

went to da ban da ban and went to meet dombutt @ khatib and we cabbed down for the wedding dinner.. super awesome.. took many photos and had a really good time having dinner.. Nicholas was.. controlled.. i rmb the last wedding we went tgt i kinda flared at him for stuffing his face so much.. but.. today he was feeding me.. sharing with me.. i felt... OMG! WHO ARE YOU!!?? but it was really nice..

look at that vapour.. does he have nostrills or does he have nostrills of steel...

one last issue i wanna highlight is.. whenever a cute girl looks at me and smiles at me.. i have this natural reflex to look away in disinterest when i am NOT not interested.. i dont know if im shy? or i am just being stupid.. a sweet smile and i turn away.. immediately... regretted.. looked up and saw a disappointed face.. sighs.. not the first time.. but.. it sucks.. I realise from Jacelyn that Changyen is really interesting and i wanna know her soft side :) but.. confidence issues.. well.. *shrugs*

My new Years Resolution!

-Gain confidence with girls
-Study hard and maintain my GPA
-Talk to God and do memory verses
-Drive a car (pass TP)
-Sign on Air Force
-settle down???


<3 DG!!!

seph, jo, mo, gam, nick, lou, Gideon (DGL)

2011-01-01T07:10:00.001-08:00

Iron: Honey, i thought we had alr ironed that out!

HAHAHAH!! ROFLTTM TM
laughing to myself while iron some retard spots that automatically crease on their own..

2011-01-01T06:43:00.000-08:00

My Minds a mess my life's once again fallen short of perfection.. things are starting to crumble yet i have little will no need to mention strength to go about on my own.. i can say that i am struggling.. i could take the waterfalls, the white river, tight spaces of caves without worrying much about my legs.. but this time.. i fell short.. i messed up..

mornings came and a simple task of ironing my shirt could get me crappy.. (due to lack of sleep i suppose)
What did the iron say to the creased shirt?

kinda thought of it when i was ironing my shirt.. band practice followed and it wasnt very fantastic because i was just overwhelmed by the fatigue which was griping me. breakfast was on a lighter note, had COFFEE! thank God for that invention which as far as 1000AD those ethiopians chewed on these seeds for kicks which nearby yemen cultivated and roast the beans for brewing which was thought it would boost spiritual experience (maybe the high) Thank you arab for distribution!

well other than that snippet of random information.. Ching Kits wedding was unbelievably awesome.. at a point of time i could feel liquid welling into my eyes.. maybe the room was to warm till my eyes had to perspire.. all the usual packing and stuff and we went for the lunch reception.. which i am really proud to say i had a huge plate of salad and a small serving of pasta! healthy (y) Had practice for tmr which i did not know why i was made to play?? went home shortly and just fell asleep in a snap!

despite being so tired skating till 5am.. Nicholas and i had a good talk and fun as usual.. i find its our thing to always shoulder each other.. i'm feel incredibly shitty.. got cheated by thunderhorse and someone who shares the same birthday.. feel so disappointed with the latter.. i think most of my misery is channeling from the fact that in just 1month and 7days time, i'm turning 19! i recall laughing at my sister and calling her a OLD hag.. as well as telling people i would commit suicide after 18.. i wasnt taught how to cope with age.. what to do.. even Jesus was a prodigy and an adult when he was a kid.. the rules still apply.. but what to do? OTOKKEI!!!

2010-12-30T09:15:00.000-08:00

I feel sometimes i am too nice.. but that's me.. call me selfish for just thinking of others ( stupid concept ) but things are just the way they are.. i sometimes feel caring for a person and sometimes just as much as a friend.. the significance of the ring is just too great for me to do anything yet.. or take a step.. it'll take time..

The Mickeymouse Ring..

2010-12-30T08:43:00.000-08:00

Cant believe i had a bitch fit in the morning because i felt the christmas present i got for Jacelyn wasnt good enough.. kinda started packing last minute and in the end we somehow met for breakfast.. got Mr bean and took a train to habourfront which we overshot 2 STOPS! (how the heck did that happen bugs me) we still made it on time and i finally got to meet the person with the same birthday as me! was kinda thrilled and anticipating where and when she'll show up.. talked to the CTV guys and walked around vivo for abit before leaving to sentosa!

went to siloso and it was... a stage.. so we walked back and went to palawan instead! played a lil volleyball.. kinda failure.. me and yaya went to check out tanjong beach and when we came back.. they were conspiring to throw ppl into the water.. and i kinda heard throw in the water only.. so.. when i saw jacelyn flying inside.. i was.. oopps.. did i give green for smth wrong? sryyy.. :P in the end.. all of us started playing in the water and they tried to get changyen into the water.. and when i wanted to get them to come back i saw CY and ben running around a tree then ben started bending forward and rolling.. actually.. i didnt know what to think but when i was walking back with the guys and heard the story, i just burst out laughing! tho Jacelyn said CY was really violent she was kinda okay? that she let us throw her in! and everyone was WET and ben was kinda.. urm.. how'd u put it.. enjoying playing push the girl in the water. and sherman was.. throw sand on that girl.. AHHA! something fun was burying mothi and putting CY on my shoulders! SO COOL! i really need to do more squats cuz i was like.. weak.. :( not that CY is fat.. and i piggybacked Jacelyn to shore and even pulled bok and CY while they were holding on to the balls.. TEEHEE!

after all that fun, we washed up and went to MARCHE! had some potato thingy and it was awesome! talked abit.. gossip here and there and then went to catch the tourist! it was a really nice movie but i was like... Zzzz.. LOL! afterwhich we met the others for dinner at a food court and then we played card games! while zack marvelled at the quotes on the wedding cards and i was folding roses! went down to get bubble tea and had a really nice talk with bok chong.. felt really at ease and learned a few things.. felt a need to follow and read about God.. i am very worried i can never be spiritually on standard to teach my boys.. but i really want to try.. went back and as usual went with Jacelyn and went home :)

Today was such a nice day.. finally met someone with the same birthday! and we shared so many interest, dislikes, likes and even habits! sooo awesome.. shoot shag marry was pretty INTERESTING cuz Jacelyn wanted to marry Bok! HAHAHHA! i really enjoy this company of friends i have.. esp bok and Jacelyn..they have inspired me to push my levels higher :) Thanks guys <333

2010-12-30T08:23:00.000-08:00

PRIMERS CHALLENGE!

The journey to Gopeng was really in need of time adjustment because we had so much constraints and there was a huge jam throughout so our teams played games and interacted with each other.. team 4 is awesome.. the Journey was pretty monotonous.. sleep.. eat... pee.. soon we reached the campsite and it was a kampung place! nth unusual to me.. and we took this really cool lorry and went down dodging stuff.. uber fun.. checked in.. wash up and had a briefing on the next days activities and gift exchange!

waterfall repalling was indeed an eye opener.. i realised that my fear of heights just died.. and it was soo fun going down. had an interesting talk with ms koh and team 4 and it was just so awesome that i did it twice! and even slid down the mini waterfall TWICE!! had lunch brought to us at the waterfall and went white water rafting which was a killer! alex was SOOO FUNNY! the instructors told him to swim but he was pretty gong gong so they threw the life line at him and SMACKED right on his PFD.. omg.. i cracked up like crazy.. rafting was super fun.. learned boom boom.. picked up rocks.. capsized.. screamed and played like anything.. it was over and we all we like.. uhhh.. went back to shower and next day briefing worship and skit prep

went to a wet cave and it was super fun.. had to go down really deep and there were so many amazing structures.. one looked like a old woman which was pretty creepy.. got a little claustrophobic when we had to go under into another level.. but it was alright.. cant believe how they started the route and crawling all over hitting heads on the rocks were part of the cool experience.. washed up abit and had lunch.. fed a cat and then went to another dry cave.. this time i ahd a helmet and head light instead of just one light stick.. hit my head like.. a thousand and one times and got a rock! had like so much fun scalling the heights of the cave and soon we were out and going down.. Joshua dislocated his left arm and i slowly helped him down which was pretty fun.. using just 1 arm.. YES AH! walked back to the campsite, washed up and had a talk, prayer and slept

on the last day, it was just a journey back home.. and i felt really awesome.. and the itch... ridiculous amounts of mosquito bites and i rushed to church for band practice and finally went home and took a good nights rest :)) next day is SENTOSA DAY! cant wait!

2010-12-25T04:59:00.000-08:00

Lit wen came and stayed over.. and we kinda woke up and went to mssia.. bumped into momster and she gave us some breakfast and stuff then we headed down to msia tgt :)

had amazing WAFFLES for breakfast and waited for Lit wen's bro to come and pick us up. which then we went to his house and lit wen changed while i played his piano just for fun :PP took the car out and drove to have beef noodles.. but it was SOLD OUT! lit wen was like.. NOOOO!! AHAHAHAH! so we had like duck noodles instead.. and the service though at some run down place.. was really good.. and i kind of missed the rural life i had when i was younger.. saw A HUGE sewer rat the lenght on my forearm the SIZE of my THIGHS! no kidding! on the car to town, we were talking about how our grandparents disposed of rats.. and ew.. don't wanna type it out..

went shopping at city square and wen needed new pants cuz he dropped from a size 40 to a 34~!!! LIKE OH MY GAWD!!! i got slippers and a pair too and while buying slippers there were like this 2 girls like trying to fight over who gets to serve us and in the end the guy helped us.. it was pretty funny and flattering at the same time.. they had great spirit and a good sense to serve with a smile :) after that we went to popular to get 40bucks of stationary! HAHAHA! and headed to starbucks for one last nice conversation.. i kinda told wen i wanted a toffee grande and he bought me black coffee verti! AND I WAS LIKE!! OMG!!! im GOING T DRINK THAT?! HAHAHAHAH! i bought a starbucks tumbler which i can design myself and ima put all my platoon 4 and cute awesome pictures :)

spent about 150rm.. and then went back.. i really needed to pee.. omg.. and the bus was KILLING ME! hahaha! wandered around woodland while waiting for nicholas after waiting so long he finally arrived.. tho i was very much upset.. i didnt say a thing.. he knew that i knew and it just becomes normal that we forgive and it doesnt seem a biggie anymore.. want to thank jacelyn for accompanying me like chatting with me..

went to gams house and ate dinner.. flew a F-16 simulator :))) and went to play wii and drank wine.. after awhile i got tipsy and went to the recording room and slept on nicholas.. woke up and started playing and talking then we started jamming like till 3am.. and went to bed.. hahah!

woke up and went home to sleep.. kinda missed church.. :P and then by the time i woke up.. all my relatives were around and was kinda afraid to go out.. hahahah! well.. tmr's primers challenge.. GOOD BYE AND MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

ARRGGGHHHH!! MY RETARD PHONE LOST THE PHOTOS!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *(!@^%#^&#*@!&(!!!! Noooo :(((((

2010-12-23T12:24:00.000-08:00

I miss those times where me and my platoon could just have fun together.. today was one of those really memorable days.. had band practice first thing in the morning and then went down to northpoint to meet my primers and had an awesome manhatten fish market dinner and Mr cheong was showing us all his honeymoon photos and they were BEAUTIFUL!! After having dinner, we went to watch a little fockers and it kinda sucks.. was messaging girl most of the time.. hahah!

After the movie we we talked and laughed abit and lit wen came to my house! Called Nicholas over and we played monopoly deal like 3rounds and every round the 1^st person who started won! So eventually in all 3 rounds, all of us managed to win :) was camming with girl while doing so and she was trying to cheat.. tskk.. then we play dai di! And Nicholas OWNED!!

Nicholas dying from winning!

my happy meal :)

crazy cravings...

Talked to bok and Changyen and then left to macs for supper! O.O I had like a happy meal and wen was just dying for a double macspicy.. watched some retarded and awesome football shots and went back .. lit wen Is just lying there now… going to bed! Tmr im heading to m’sia! Tata~

a very much dead nicholas

2010-12-22T10:07:00.000-08:00

today was a pretty good day :)

woke up and was talking to girl.. and she kinda encouraged me when the internet was down and all crummy.. got to see her dog and i found that things dont really turn out well when you do wrong things.. girl talked me into going down to HQ and i met her at sembawang to take DC's topie (or wadever its spelled) and went down tgt.. she went to bishan and i went to orchard..

on the way over, i saw that the train was SOOOO full.. and i even thought of going to woodlands and coming down.. but i jus Told myself that God will provide.. and when i met girl.. the next train was EMPTY! like.. WOW! praise God from whom all Blessings FLOOOWWWWwwwww~ :))

bid farewell to girl and sort of made her embarrass herself cuz she went to the wrong door and it was HILARIOUS!! HAHAHAH! went down to HQ and it was like a prize giving ceremony! got a cert and a lovely card from xing ya.. had a nice dinner and for old times we oh ya pei ya som to see who cleared the dishes and xing ya and fiona ZHONG! haahahha! talked to peksuan and ben before leaving to Great world city for ice cream and took some pictures..

went to bishan to meet girl again and we went for supper.. it was fun talking and teasing on the train and soon we parted ways with her hands a bag of frenchfries and i went back home :)

Talking to bok chong now.. and a realization that Danny sir was talking to me abt.. that my platoon will slowly drop out.. and i feel like crying if im the only one left.. i dont want to be alone serving 11th.. and i really miss lit wen.. hope friday comes sooner.. ;(