Things went out of hand today.. i felt i shouldnt have yelled at her.. but either way.. she is the one that say im sorry.. that's something i really love about her.. quarrelling has become so frequent these days.. before i sleep and even the first thing when i wake up.. i always start the arguement and she always apologizes.. now's she's vommitting for some reason and i cant be close to her..


i don't know if i should let her go.. or if all this is worth time.. but i do pray about it every night..


i get the wrong idea from gestures you send to me.. now i get so mad and disuade you from telling me.. i feel sad.. why.. the emptiness is like a dark whole eating me alive.. otherwise, i still feel sometimes i love you.. but you dont want a relationship.. neither do i know how u feel about me.. at night, i try to forget about you.. but i find myself mussitate your name.. i hope she knows.. i know she understand alrdy.. but time still won't change that fact she doesnt want to tell me how she feels other than being mad at me.. in the end.. she always comes back and apologizes first.. how can i bear to ignore...



troubled..


never in my life have i been so troubled by one retard..