counting down..

well.. another few more days and i'll face manhood...

i really dun wana turn 18.. im not ready for it... so i really wanna cherish these momments that i have as a youth.. actually im more worried abt whats gonna come after my birthday.. sighh... 20more days till wee wees.. from mine.. lol

i havent really thought abt my resolution this year.. but i really want to study hard.. do well and get a scholarship.. i seriously think if i put in effort i can do it.. now my lifes all in shards.. bits and pieces here and there... sighhh.. i guess the largest piece was taken and lost cuz of some kid... and the rest are just fumbles.. i really dun wanna screw my life.. i feel that i have a need to provide for my family... i wanna start bonding maybe start with talking really nice with my parents and sibs... go home early and set example to my sibblings... i guess they look to me as the oldest actually.. cuz i mature faster :D no la.. hahah

wishing for..

something that can keep me warm..
a lunchbox to put my sandwiches and food :)
better instruments
new skates
lots and lots of love
i hope i can just die... and go to heaven..


talking to camerine now.. and downloading maple.. ya.. MAPLE PPL!! hahaha!

don't think can celebrate this year... :( soooo gonna SUCK!!!


oh wells.. i was taking a nap and i dreamt that nicholas went with me to buy me a PIANO!! hahaha! in the end we got into trouble with people and started fighting... omg la.. ahhah.

oh wells.. gonna do the set up then go back t bed.. nighty night!