The last days

I have to be successful, I have to get a good paying job. I need to take care of my parents and siblings, I have to act more mature, I can no longer throw loh Hei as high as to the fans, I cannot get fat, I will get weaker, my back might break, I might never meet her, I might never start a family, I need to study harder, I have to be vigilant, I have to remember things better, I must stay healthy, I must push my limits, I cannot laugh and play like a fool, I might not make it as a pilot, I can't qualify to teach, I may never get a degree, I might lose my mom, I might lose my life.

I need freedom something to escape in.. A person I can confide in.. Someone that understands the deeper meaning.. Unravel the code.