Penning Down Feelings
Its been so long since i have last done this,
today has been one of the most emotionally stirring day.. in Louis Language:
People tend to show disinterest and affection at times when they should or shouldnt, i cannot understand your language.. venusian.. i dont know if your in or out.. im keep getting wrong signals.. at times.. i remember the restriction and i really dont want to complicate things.
Everyone deserves a good listening ear.. i am oblivious to how i am. when it comes down to things i have done for so long, i will think i am right.. i pray for wisdom and people to tell me that i am wrong.. i should listen.. nicely.. sweetly and ever so caringly.. i really hope that in my time.. i will learn how to be a better leader.. i am horrible at it.. i can learn so much more.. i take back what i say.. but im glad we established something today, i too learnt something today.. it was a Great.. awesome Bad day.. but effectively i learnt alot.. thank you!
AIISHH!!! BOHYAH! will you just speak HUMAN! sometimes i feel like I'M the VENUSIAN and YOU are the MARTIAN!
today.. we went KBOX! and my bestfriend woke up late.. i became immune.. deep inside.. it really cuts me.. everytime.. i know what's he's capable of.. and he really is great.. just that.. soft rectangles are super effective.. still.. we shared our footlong subs.. and sang westlife till we felt our voice boxes vibrate to a pitch where it sounded like banshees.. totally cool! went to get my flight stick and throttle and learnt my first lessons! intrumentation, ATC, buttons, pitching and landing! i kinda crashed landed.. everything broke.. hahaha!
meeting was a fruitful one.. i learnt alot of lessons which i feel apologetic and imperfect.. i still have so much to learn and to do.. i feel like i cant do this anymore.. i really want to give up.. EVERYTHING i hold.. its getting too heavy for me.. i dont know if i can count on Nicholas.. everyone else is too Distant.. i cant feel God.. crumbling down to tears.. but i really want to do this for God.. i dont want to be a give upper.. i wanna face it and fight till i die.. but how much more beating can i take..
Guys.. i know i can be very egoistic.. and i can be insensitive.. i want to change.. help me to.. accept me and teach me.. i will grow like the stick i alrd am..
no i am not watching porn.. i am simply flying my new simulator!
today has been one of the most emotionally stirring day.. in Louis Language:
People tend to show disinterest and affection at times when they should or shouldnt, i cannot understand your language.. venusian.. i dont know if your in or out.. im keep getting wrong signals.. at times.. i remember the restriction and i really dont want to complicate things.
Everyone deserves a good listening ear.. i am oblivious to how i am. when it comes down to things i have done for so long, i will think i am right.. i pray for wisdom and people to tell me that i am wrong.. i should listen.. nicely.. sweetly and ever so caringly.. i really hope that in my time.. i will learn how to be a better leader.. i am horrible at it.. i can learn so much more.. i take back what i say.. but im glad we established something today, i too learnt something today.. it was a Great.. awesome Bad day.. but effectively i learnt alot.. thank you!
AIISHH!!! BOHYAH! will you just speak HUMAN! sometimes i feel like I'M the VENUSIAN and YOU are the MARTIAN!
today.. we went KBOX! and my bestfriend woke up late.. i became immune.. deep inside.. it really cuts me.. everytime.. i know what's he's capable of.. and he really is great.. just that.. soft rectangles are super effective.. still.. we shared our footlong subs.. and sang westlife till we felt our voice boxes vibrate to a pitch where it sounded like banshees.. totally cool! went to get my flight stick and throttle and learnt my first lessons! intrumentation, ATC, buttons, pitching and landing! i kinda crashed landed.. everything broke.. hahaha!
meeting was a fruitful one.. i learnt alot of lessons which i feel apologetic and imperfect.. i still have so much to learn and to do.. i feel like i cant do this anymore.. i really want to give up.. EVERYTHING i hold.. its getting too heavy for me.. i dont know if i can count on Nicholas.. everyone else is too Distant.. i cant feel God.. crumbling down to tears.. but i really want to do this for God.. i dont want to be a give upper.. i wanna face it and fight till i die.. but how much more beating can i take..
Guys.. i know i can be very egoistic.. and i can be insensitive.. i want to change.. help me to.. accept me and teach me.. i will grow like the stick i alrd am..
posted by Louis at
8:37 AM
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