Weaknesses

I lack in strength.. Confidence.. Assurance.. Encouragement.. Security and fighting spirit.

When I am taking this path.. I am soo afraid of failure.. So afraid of difficulties.. I need to have the spirit to fight on.. The will to take on te challenges I have to face.. Things that I want will never be easy to get..

I've been too broken.. Shattered and torn that I have nothing to give.. But a tattered heart.. I'm not just giving it to anyone.. I'm giving it to someone who can help me fix it.. With care and lots of love.. It will take alot of time.. Alot if trust.. I'm afraid it'll be torn again so sometimes I pull it back.. I retract it from her.. I'm sorry..

I guess the only thing I can do now is to have the spirit to press on.. To depend on my own strength.. Fix everything and carry on everyday like its normal.. That way.. She'll be happy.. I'll be less caring towards here. Cold even.. But that's the only way I can figure out