Close encounter with Grim

when i was going to sleep.. i felt i lost i little of my soul.. and in my dreams i was tempted by a fish to jump into the river.. however.. i didnt and continued running.. i wonder if those are signs that i wouldnt have long to live.. well.. it would be soon.. i'd be able to tell :) you can tell it in people's eyes..

what faith can do..
when world tells you that you cant, it will tell you that you can.. <3

i wonder who's willing to go Reccee with me.. i asked! i did! the initial response made my heart skip beats! but i didnt want to impose.. tho twas reluctant.. i did feel sad..

COFFEE AH

 GREENHORNS GREENTRAIL!

i came up with that! and i think a heirachy would be so cool.. like got some level up thing :D hahahaaha! so next time instead of year 1s.. year 2s.. we can go:
Year 1s: GREENHORNS!
Year 2s: GREENRANGERS
Year 3s: GREENCOUNCIL!

HAHAHA! or smth along that line..


Coffee.. Coffee.. Tea.. Tea.. Kopi? Kopi-O?, Kopi-O gah dai? Kopi-C? Kopi Peng? TEH LAH!

i feel that a cup o coffee gets me going throughout the day.. and i am sensing disinterest.. i wonder if i still should ask if the person wants to come.. it'll be nice.. today.. i learned alot.. and i think my notes are getting pretty comprehensive..

Texting isn't a chore.. and i wonder if im in the wrong.. im really looking forward to the upcoming nature Trail for year 1s and i even called birdie along to do some catching up.. some recreational event.. so why not.. i was thinking.. am i doing something wrong? or am i not getting the right hints..

gonna turn in early.. after some piano.. i hope Xin Yi really comes.. :))) tmr gonna plan the game forfeits and start doing preps for the food part.. Seniors goonna prepare.. so itll be prettae awesome :D okay.. i'll go for a recee on thurs.. my heart throbs..

my very loose pants

im back again to fill this empty space!

today i was soo tired.. slept at 4.. prac piano like.. idiot.. learned nth much.. variations improved :)) IG meeting kept me going.. i was really anticipating a huge bunch of kiddies to play games with as well as to see V and talk to her.. but didnt go too well.. in fact it went horribly.. didnt even speak.. okay.. on my part i was afraid. caught her escaping my glances.. mutual..

The duck game was really fun and i found out that some people didnt like E too! LOL! it was brilliant.. had a mass of fun.. tho JK kept blocking me.. all i could see was PINK! dammit.. shudve pasted bigger masking tapes.. after that we had dinner @ martins.. and the cake that was left behind without anyone eating was made into a forfeit for games! it was SO DAMN FUN! hahahahahaah! laughed my balls off.. we first played missin no.. eat like crazy.. CH.. idiot!! i was 1st to go and he was like...
Louis: Okay.. i thought of it. START
CH: okay.. errr.. ELEVEN!
Louis: O-O
Warren: AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
Louis: you dumbfk.. eat the cake! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!

omg.. stupid.. then it carried on.. then we played i say fold.. sooooo FUNNY AHHAHAH! if it were all guys.. it'll be hillarious... ROFLTTM.. hahahaha! discussed some stuff.. came home play piano and now gonna do TICE events till prettae late.. :( well.. tmr.. COFFEE!

LITWEN! <3 you and cant wait for you to be back :)

ELLOz my dear page of HTML CODES!

today i friggin woke up late for church. i like ran out of the house because had band practice.. and in the end.. the BAND WASNT THERE! ONLY ME AND DRUMMER! we had huge problems together in the morning finding people to replace.. the band members were working at sundown and it ended late for them.. so it was a pity.. frm 6am end become 830.. and prac was at 830.. one reason why i was late was DG, we watch pirates of the Carribean! SO AWESOME! ASTRID IS PRETTY :))) well.. i practiced like crap to fill in th electric guitar.. but didnt work out nicely.. so we kicked it acoustic version.. and with just Abigail, Moses and I, acoustic, drums piano.. it was not too shabby... Band members dont feel bad you cant play and sam kinda got pissed at you guys for being late.. I STILL LOVE YOU! MUACK! i hold nothing against you! although i was sooo nervous! so afraid i'd screw up.. and i did.. -_- 1st song.. 3wrong chords.. OMG!

after service, i went home straight and slept.. MISSED TRAINING! NOOO!! soo.. inevitably.. i stayed home caught movie with dad and sis.. then i did the unthinkable.. maple.. my evan is LVL 70! WOOOHOOOOOOOOO!! IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF :))) anyhoos.. ive been hearing talk that teachers wanna speak to me.. BUT I AM FINE! i just need some time to renew myself.. i still love my platoon 10 and platoon 4 have been supporting me all this while.. im not gonna give up so easily

had alot fun talking to verlin.. she's a really nice girl.. who surprisingly does mandarin really well :O i cant really understand.. but.. oh well.. :( i try.. ahhaah! today IG and im gonna go for a nice night workout before i sleep today :) or not.. hehe!

Before i leave.. just this song.. i heard in the morning.. made my day <3

Love Affair

Wow.. i am so TIRED!
i know that i constantly rattle about high my fatigue level is.. but i don't find a day where i can find my self saying.. ahhh.. so relaxed today.. well.. i don't regret it :) im living my life to it's fullest.. cause i know i dont have long to live :)

Thing's really started when i went for DG.. today we continued talking on revelations.. but before which we had dinner at yoshinoya with Nick, Jo and Seph.. the counter girls were cute and laughed at us.. cuz nicholas damn stupid.. went to Music room and played some games then Ching Kit came and we headed to youth room.

started our usual thing and i found myself taking back these lessons.. i should know what is right and what is wrong and DONT do what is wrong.. also as we were sharing out days, i reflected on this.. i always say i love God.. but what exactly does it mean? i tried placing someone in the picture.. and surprisingly i came up with these answers,

To Love someone:
i want to spend as much time with her as possible
i want to make her happy by pleasing her
i want to share my joy and pain with her
i want to listen to her telling me things
i want to go out with her and share experiences with her
i never want to let her go


replace her with God.. now that's something..


i came up with this analogy.. we are all pieces of a puzzle.. a riduclously big one.. some of us might have cut and protrusions as a piece and we variate the protrusions and cuts.. but these in turn helps fit another persons piece. in that we fulfil a bigger picture. some of us are almost whole but missing a few pieces, may it be a girlfriend, a puppy, something that makes us more filled and the puzzle can be really difficult to piece.. finding the piece is hard.. just like sometimes we think its right.. it fits somewhere else.. sure we get upset.. but we see another picture of the whole puzzle piece.


well.. life is full of lessons.. loving someone isnt about the good times we share.. but more of how the two people are willing to accept their differences and build on them.. that will build a stone bridge..


caught pirates of the Caribbean.. and the mermaid was soooo pretty! omg.. X/ i dont say these kinda things.. but she's amazing.. called my sister at 230am to fetch me home and now we're about to head out again.. after that.. back home.. shower again.. pack my stuff.. go church for band practice.. eat breakfast.. play for service.. eat lunch.. come home put down my stuff.. go for training.. come back, study.. and go to bed.. weekend burned.. i need something interesting.. :(




Coffee.. don't fail me now..

The 'i'll never do it again' feeling

when i see you my heart skips a beat, when i see your replies i tend to get on my feet.
now things aren't what they turned out to be, i just feel that queasy feeling again.. just like when u know you're gonna break up.. i dont want it to end so soon.. i really felt right this time..
V

 

song for the night :)

Time to get my week really started.. or should i? i have no purpose to go parade tmr.. i want to find out what would happen to parade if i wasnt around. very likely tmr's case.. i find its about time too anyway.. ima MIA for awhile.. im sorry my lil platoon 10kids.. i'll see u guys around and i'll still check on you rascals..

School was alright.. but playing in class isnt very good.. esp with those havoc people.. im really looking to monday.. i made the helmets alr.. and i cant imagine the catastophy or fun. its like flipping a coin.. mmmm.. that's all i have in my mind right now.. praying for the right things to happen at the right time ;)

I'm Sharing a lift with a bug.. and i've yet to connect to wireless@sg :D hehe!
anyway.. something awesome for the morning.. a cup of coffee, looking for newer blogskins.. and.... KUTLESS! :DD

fatigue.. how i wish it wasnt real.. if only we can overcome it.. once again.. im up.. doing crap at night.. and playing games with DENV ppl.. hahah! Genomics was so fun! i learned so much! francis lim.. funny guy.. had lunch and after UT which was really easy.. i went for band prac and came home.. fix piano.. play piano.. study Genomics.. play game.. and now im going to bed :)


I wish i could talk to you but my half introversion is preventing me from that.. further more.. im afraid...


Hoping for a fun monday :)

Hello Earthlings!

As of now i feel so much lighter.. more than ever before.. i have graduated into the elder's Council and soon to pass on my CLP (company leading Primer's) position to the next generation. though i wasn't able to achieve the presidents award, i felt like i crumbling at some time. however, there are always things like my discipleship group, platoon 4 and really great friends that i have that cheered me on :)

Saturday was AWESOME! went for parade, taught adventure lesson, went to church for band prac and went back with Nicholas to grab his stuff then he came over and we took a nap on my bed till DG started. we went to church and watched 3movies about revelation.. Goodness.. we all like died at the 3rd movie.. 5 FRIGGIN AM! hahahahahah! but it was so fun.. we still wanted to practice.. but fatigue was too much for 6scrawny lil men. except Nicholas.. FATBOY! AHAHAH! so after lying down we realised we couldnt sleep.. so we play pictionary.. ROFL!! AHHAHAHA! nicholas and i were like.. GODMODE HAHAHAH! we can simply read each others mind regardless how ugly the drawings were.. HEHHE :D then mo came back from his trip home and he drove us for breakfast.. jizz.. we were soooo havoc.. came back and went to shower with nick, then we practiced till about 10 then we went for coffee at ah huat.. after which we went to power nap in the music room.. Worship was really great i had to say :) went back and missed training because i was soooo tired :( FAT AWAY!!!

IG welcome tea was really unexpectedly great! i met some really nice people and i cant believe i remembered 1/4 of people's names.. really fun :) got to talk to 1 member which i later found out was from year2 and she's really very nice.. hope to get to see them more often !

Wee and i spoke ytd after soooo friggin long.. felt really good after so long.. but it wasnt like the other times.. damn wee.. u shower for centuries i swear..  FYP is really time consuming.. UTs are up.. JAC is round the corner and TICE is one heck of a headache.. aft program done.. gonna get manpower.. hope VLYH can help :)


LAB! gtg!