I cant believe after thinking so hard whether or not to text i got some crappy reply.. talk about anti climax.. but what the heck..

I'll be leaving my last post here until i return from penang.. and just when i thought of getting right with Regina.. im gonna miss talking to Inneke :( well.. tmr.. \

1900 School Research and presentation
1430 Meeting and Lunch with 11th Coy Band
1700 Meeting With TICE Eco camp main committee + Dinner
2200 Head down to alpha Chalet to run program

0600 parade sending
0800 alpha revellie
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1700 BBQ (Alpha)
2300 Rush Home
0000 Finish packing

0400 Changi Airport
0700 Flight to Penang

See ya in a weeks time :)


or never..

WOW..
i just wrote my will.. hope no one will get the chance to read it..

i dreamt i was on a plane a it crashed.. time really stopped and slowed down.. but i realised i was on my fluffy pillow hugging my SQ pillow.. snugged in my blankie.. no wonder dying felt so... AUUSSUMMZ! ROFL!!

i yet to write my first book and my comic strip.. :/ my comic BOOK!!! HAHAH! :) stix! :PPP

WOOO!!! I HAVE TIME TO WRITE DOWN MY THOUGHTS!!! FINALLY!!!

i realized once saturday hits.. my whole week is just screwed up.. but i love it!
Saturday morning went out for breakfast @645am with warren, mel and fiona.. awesome bah cor mee :)
was DP for the day and i was kinda nervous when i had to command the whole parade.. GB and BB.. thank God she wasnt there... phew.. then AQ came.. had to teach some kids how to micronavigate and then test the seniors to see who is capable of navigation and who to put as supreme navi of the AQ teams.. lunch was.. bah cor mee again.. and i went to FCBC! wooow.. awesumzz.. and i finally talked to Jade after procrastinating so much.. alot of reasons.. :/ it was soooo funny with my DG and i LOVE GREENTEALATTE @ STARBUCKS!! gotta have MORE!!! AHHAHAHA! then also.. we cramped in Gideons' car and did the usual tardedness..

dont cry over spilt milk? what about coffee?

Sunday was a whole new level of church.. first of all.. we woke up @ 6.. AGAIN! to  attend Anglican service.. and it wasnt all that bad! i kinda enjoyed it.. talked to sharlini and made some friends? LOL! gam, nick, seph and I hungout.. slacked arnd church till our service started and.. damn.. the whole hall flooded.. and i got really hungry to nicholas dragged me out to eat :D then we lepak in music room and went back when sermon ended cuz we didnt want to barge in the whole crowd... HAHA! iknow it seems we just wana slack.. BUT HECK! I PRACTICED DRUMMING! XPPP lunch was awesummz as usual.. and i went back home and slept like.. a few hours.. got up.. did some prep for Alpha and went to bed..

Monday was pretty... suckish.. genetics.. didnt really understand.. kinda practicing my CSS skills and we kinda ended there.. got pretty pissed when my bro skipped school.. say school all not condusive and cannot learn better off learning at home.. playing runescape.. yeah right.. i love my brother.. i just dont want him to be a fking useless lifeless ill diciplined outlaw..

Tuesday.. Dom was still at home.. got so pissed off i stormed in my room and started jamming my E-git out loud.. texted my bestfriend in the world to talk some sense into him because once again.. my proneness to throat cancer just went up a notch.. cant live without chilli.. :( inflammation.. FML.. but i stil had like.. curry rice and chicken rendang for lunch ROFL!!! slept abt 11 after sending e-mails.. texts and all that crap..

Today! was AWESOME! Love AI.. my facilitator is SOOO SWEET! AHHAHA! i dont have a crush on her.. ?? LOL! learnt about NMR.. which stands for nuclear errr... magnetic.. err.. resonance.. hahhaahha!!! YESS!!!! all about reading the peaks and analyzing the molecules seeing how many neighbors they have and deducing the chemical shift and proton shielding.. damn.. so cool right? i wanna make a game called Mol E cule :D hahahaah! had some insane CSSing today.. like wiitmack, Yat =D, RoXor, ahdu, ernest and christopher columbus oh and there was iusetouchpad once in awhile.. ROFL ttm.. as usual... TOP FRAGGER!! but im considered noob.. omg.. tactical man!!!

wells.. the post is like frigign long.. and i still donno if i shud text or not.. what if that person thinks u finally out of my life now u appear!? WTF IS UR PROBLEM!? or WTF!! U DIDNT WISH ME?! .!. YOU CBKNN! kinda 2 situations.. both... equally harsh and uncalled for.. ima gonna watch spongebob and plunge my head in ice..

INNEKE :DDDD love chatting with that lil kid.. hahaha!

GAHHH!!! im so tired...

today we had an awesome time in schoool.. COUNTER STRIKE SOURCE BABY!!! well.. Donald, I and Yat were teamed together and we like had SUPER MUCH FUN! that doesnt make sense... but whatever!!!

CSS:
Game Initialize : De_dust> CT_join, > Bot_add_T, >Wiitmack has joined the game, >YAT =) has joined the game: RED TEAM : 3 BLUE TEAM 13

Christopher Columbus: team move out,
Wiitmack, YAT =) : Roger That

Christopher Columbus: Fire in the hole! FLASH
YAT =): WALAU WEI!
Christopher Columbus: OMG! Tunnel towards BSA! FLOOD!
YAT =):  Fire in the hole! WOOOO! I FRAG!
Christopher Columbus: Fire in the hole! HAAHA! GOT DEAD BODY FLY TOWARD ME! AHAH!!
Wiitmack: Covering Fire! Advance Advance!
*crosses DD Tunnel
Christopher Columbus: Enemy Spotted! SPRAY!!
YAT =): EH! WHO IS THAT!?
Wiitmack: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
Christopher Columbus: Yat! not you?! BBFFAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!
Wiitmack, YAT =) Christopher Columbus: WAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!
Christopher Columbus: HAHAHAH! OMG!! YAT I TOT YOU SIAL!!!
Wiitmack: Louis! i tot it was you! but then u alrd in front then WHY THE GUY GOT HELMET?
Yat =): YAH SIAL!! WHAT THE TOOT ! HE JUST WALK  FROM BEHIND US!


Stupid AI bots.. 3 of us couldve been annhilated there and then.. but that goondoo just happily stroll down with his Magnum and still can walk past Donald, move away from Yat and stand infront of me.. ROFL TTM!

I felt really good walking home today.. felt the breeze and that grassy smell.. made me feel so happy inside.. it was mommentary but i would give a day just to feel that awesome feeling again for just 1 minute..

tmr exams up and i have to prepare myself for more sleepless nights as CLP is gonna work my butt off..

Inneke! hahaha!

i feel like some ppl  hate me.. i dont know why.. she's so hostile...
why am i always ripped apart by 2 ppl.. gahh,, sucks..

i wanna study hard just like seohyun :)

Wisdom:
earthly wisdom - Divine Wisdom

Gideon say's Wisdom is the application of knowledge and can be used in:
-family problems
-relationships
-choices in life

i feel that i should have that...

balance my life just like this 2 soft boil eggs from toast box on sat morning.. <3

anyhoo.. parade was awesome.. my whole saturdays are always burned from morning 430am-0000 because of band practice and all.. and i found myself sleeping the whole day of sunday just to catch up with sleep i have lost the past few days.. :(
i wanna go church.. i keep missing it.. ima set alarm.. SO COLD THESE DAYS!!!

i miss vietnam.. i miss some people.. i wanna go back.. ;(

CLP effective of today!!!
Glad so many primers turned up.. so awesome :)

During band practice.. nicholas... epic.... i laughed so hard for 30mins.. i thought i would have died of laughter...

Drums: TAKA TAKA!*
Acoustic,Electric,Base,Piano: ALL YOUR PROMISES WONT LET GO OFF ME! Pull off*
Nicholas ( Worship Leader) : Coughs Coughs*
Acoustic: haha
Worship Leader: AAUUUGHHHHLLLL*
Acoustic: hahahahahahahahahaha!
Acoustic: Looks at Electric*
Electric: O.O OMGWTBB?! HUH?!
Acoustic: WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHFUUFUHAHAHAHA!!!

while acoustic guitarist rolls on floor.. dangerously close to the vomit*
Electric: You okay anot?
Worship leader: I think i vomit abit
Bass: eeee.. what u eat just now?
Worship leader: i think its just water and some gastric juice:
Electric: My mike got kenna anot?!
Acoustic: AHHAHAhAHAHAHAH *GASPS* AHAHHAHAHAHWHAHAHAHFFUFFHAAHAHAHA!
Bass: Takes toilet paper ans cleans*
Worship leader: i think i cough too much until vomit.. oh shit.. i vomit on myself
Acoustic: W-H-A-T-T-H-E-B-O-N-G-B-O-N-G!? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *CRIES* TvT


uhh.. i too tired alrd.. even when u type this out im laughing so badly..omg.. i wanna sleep.. i need a hug.. Gideon's expression was priceless...................... like half.. ehh? did that just happen? half OMG! my MIKE!


AHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHROFLTTMLOLAHAHAHHALMAOTTMAHAHHAHAHA!

Alpha course
Gaming in class
Weird Dream
awesome day ahead..

Cheer up Changyen!!! once you're done with ur award rmb to tag me in your AWESOME PHOTO!


talking to chang i felt so nostalgic about things that happened around me and started to miss platoon 4.. where we'd always have amazing outings to like.. everywhere... making havoc.. public nuisance and creating a scene wherever we go.. i rmb those adventures we had in the middle of the night and i look through my photos.. it was mostly them.. i really cant imagine life without knowing those people.. they gave me the passion for boys the way i felt.. they changed me.. and i do want to do the same for my boys..

We were once no more than 150when we came in.. we all came in in pairs.. Nicholas - Louis, Jonathan - Darren, Warren - Andre, Benjamin - Mangalam, Jackie - Seng chye Lit wen.. we were all from different Levels.. E, NA, NT.. but still we felt like we'd known each other for years.. we shed tears.. shared joy, celebration and even loses.. but we always have each other.. united as one.. 2by 2 we came in.. a wall of friendship we built.. anger, saddness, conflict all were not strong enough to push us down.. over 4 years p4became one.. <3 u guys!

HAPPY BB DAY :)


went to CCSS really early like 6am i was in the canteen and we made prep for the parade in the morning.. practiced the colour party and did some final touches.. fiona danial and zang teng came which made things really nice because i felt i wasnt alone :)

went to school after that and played piano in the library with warren.. in D.. LOL! falling slowly.. :) Lab session was.. COOL! we made like aspirin pellets.. AWESOME MUCH! use spectrometer to find the absorbance and had to do the whole lab report by myself despite 1hr of sleep.. but still managed to do it..

Soo pretty!

went home straight and SLEPT! LOL!

Seohyun and Simple plan craze!!!!

Tuesday was a screwup.. i love tuesdays.. tuna subs.. but this particular one SUCKS

felt so crappy this morning and it was like something suppressing my breathing.. woke up at the wrong side of the bed kinda day.. got drizzled upon while walking to school..

my dear Boy OZT.. didnt make it to RP.. and his DPA got rejected/cancelled.. i was there with him this morning and i really hope i could do more if i didnt have school.. lab session was a little conflicting because there were too many leaders and i thank my tumbler for the hot choco..

chocolate just.. makes everything well.. lunch was warm and toasty and after school.. i went for a violin concert @ TRCC.. IT WAS ORGASMIC!!! i have no other words to describe.. there was plucking, harmonics and chords which was OUTOFTHISWORLD! i nearly jizzed in my pants.. i so wanted to cry and shout scream wail and ROF.. omg.. superb.. pianist accompanying the violin was great too..

i feel like i've disapointed loisa.. i read the email wrongly and missed the dead line.. i didnt READ properly.. that's whats wrong with me.. mistakes always happen because i like to know it all and skip through them.. sighhh.. AI UT was not as depressing.. but i felt my points werent strong enough.. frankly.. i havent been following my schedule and HOLY CRAP! GENETICS ON THURS!!! DIE!!!

Cammy.. i miss you :(

gonna mugg now.. :(

Drenched on the way to school
Drenched on the way back home (mostly self inflicted)

i really love rainy days.. and when the rain isn't  heavy i like walking under it.. its like really good to think while the drops slow touch you.. like a whole new sensation.. also it brings back memories on how i developed a phobia for something...

well.. i think im gonna change my statement of hating fat people.. i have nothing against fat people ( except i like to see how they move, how they take more than one seat, smell funny, eat alot, perspire alot and how they talk.. its like.. their chins inhibiting them from making vibrations and they always sniff sniff like some blocked cavity of layered lipids..) anyhoo.. i find what's disgusting is because they really waste resources.. but the point is.. sometimes.. un-fat people do it too.. and i don't see why i should hack the prosperity from those well rounders.. instead.. i will try rubbing their tummies and putting my fingers into their belly button and shout : HUAT AH!!!


Genetics today was a total.. no words.. did finger printing.. and i have girl fingers.. lowest TRC in class pl0x..

WOW! i have slept for..18HOURS!! :D

had recruitment ytd and only slept.. 2hours.. met warren for breakfast and went to school.. saw some familiar faces and some of them grew :) esp my kids.. hehe..

went to dinner with DG and had like a smalll jammig session at church and went home..
slept ever since then..

had an amazing dream :)

super powers.. dramatic situations.. awesome special effects.. lovely mango cake :) HAHAH!

today.. im gonna finish studying AI.. T^T dies*

wish me luck

Jus finished alpha and i am really tired.. living on coffee.. i really need to sleep.. but i also hope to talk to some ppl.. mom made me some noodles.. so yum yum :) 99.9% healthy! chicken soup! with vege and BAH COR!!awesome much.. chilli padi would be the best combi.. but i got sore throat and coming down with a flu.. so :((

im gonna talk to warren bout tmr;s recruitment and i pray that we would have an awesome quality and quantity of platoon 10!! my 1st platoon taken and taught by yours truly :) so excited to meet u all!!!

i realised if u just keep ur legs moving and look at the directions you're going.. u dont have to pu-sing :)

really awesome funny day in class.. cant believe i survived.. i receive ur pokes.. but ur never online.. what's up with that?!

 

i even came up with all the lyrics :) 

ohh.. my eyes my eyes mustve been so blurry when I first saw you
make up make up really working wonders to put that on you
you were beautiful when I spotted you that day

ohh.. I know I know when she got closer I couldn’t believe it
this ho this ho had a face that she got beated
but every time she turned around walked away I say

when I see your face! *FACE :(((
theres not a thing I would not change
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly
and when you smile
the homies get scared for awhile
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly

her toes toes they look so crusty stinky and madashhy???
Her tits her tits she show’s them off but they’re so saggy
She smells like booty hole..
And I tell her everyday
Oh you know you know you know you know I never ask u to take
If somehow we were both somewhere I’d ask u to pay
And don’t.. try to kiss me cuz I’d much rather be gay (SHRIEKS*)
You KNOW I SAY!!!

when I see your face! *FACE :(((
theres not a thing I would not change
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly
and when you smile
the homies get scared for awhile
cuz u were amazing.. ONLY FROM AFAR *Cries terribly

afar~ afar ar ar~
you were amazing.. only from afar~

ThispostisforInnekeKemal

HEY KIDDY!
you've been so nice to talk to me everyday! and u sleep the same hours as me.. so nice of you.. HAHA!
evn tho you've just turned 14 and celebrated ur birthday.. u still bother to chat with me abt princesses and give me weird quizes and make me laugh.. Thank you!

THANK YOU INNEKE! :)

Im soo totally gonna study now.. till.. 3am? maybe?

i dont know why.. i havent the motivation or the drive to really study.. maybe its my table? maybe i'm just to crappy or its just something bugging me.. there's this feeling that i want to avoid studying.. i dont know why..

school was great.. SHWM..kinda boring but research done everything and proposal was up in like.. 2hours? so i was watching princess diaries 2.. in love with Anne Hathaway <3 she's so pretty.. innocent.. sweet.. err..stops*

armed with my tumbler loaded with hot chocolate from vietnam.. here we go.. problem 5-9..

HAHAHAH! Inneke made me do this.. go ahead and try..

READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY

Inneke Kemal says (1:11 AM):

*Prepare a piece of paper and write 1-10..

1&2 write ur fav num from (1-11)

3&7 write the name of your opp gender

4-6 write the name that u think important to you

8-11 write songs name

1:11~!!!! AHAHHAHA!

its 4 TO 6!!!

i shall give the answers tmr night :))

Luv this small cup.. can play shots :)

Today's one is gonna be real short..

Inneke has been talking to me alot after a certain incident and i am quite thankful for her.. as well as CSM.. incredibly thickskinned midly awesome midget..

today.. i slept while watching a video waiting for class to start.. omg.. went back home straight and wanted to study! however.. i watch princess diaries and had seaweed.. when i started studying.. i ended up doing my tumbler.. and I LOVE IT TTM!!!

God has been so good to me.. i cant understand why he loves us so much.. i just cannot comprehend.. in his ways or whatever.. i will be like a lion.. fearless of nothing for i have the word as my roar, prospects as my claws and christianity boldly worn and shining like the mane :)

srsly.. addicted to THIS

i think im too deep.. till the extent of retardedness..

Mixed fruit cake
Crap icing
with a cherry on top

1 person would have a slice of this

Feel awesome after gyming today.. but really tired.. im gonna study abit for AI and then sleep by 12.. tmr need to study alot.. mugging.. here i come!

in class today.. rDNA.. friggin killer... talked about plasmids, cosmids, phagemids YAC plasmids, fasmids and the base pair of restriction enzymes and inactivation of proteins when the plasmid becomes a recombinant.. still dont understand what i'm talking about.. just terms..

In my module briefing.. i felt terrible.. i feel that RP though it being so good and the people really nice.. yet our standing still sucks.. why? because its new? because ppl die and started the influenza? i do admit there are some really bad people... but still.. SAS rocks.. the nerds and niceness of my classmates, level term and facilitators.. some are HOT! feel really hopeful to go for and attachment to someplace that i can benefit from.. i hope NUS, overseas, or some places where i can get hands on and do research.. universities dont exactly take RP studs.. pfftt..

talked to Nicholas and he said he saw that coming.. if he KNEW! he shudve told me.. asswipe.. but me nicholas my brother and his brother had an awesome dinner at subway and had lots of fun..

right now.. i just want to exculpate myself.. i really hope 8th feb isnt playing payback.. i mean.. okay fine.. i'll go with it.. dont want to do anything alr.. felt i have done enough.. these kinda things just dont work even tho i got experience..

im so gonna get fever.. i can descry that crappy feeling alr.. throat inflamation! FML! porridge all the way~!

I never knew that kindness and being nice could be so destructive.. i should just stop right? throw the soft wussale me away.. things wont change by themselves.. neither willl time.. go apply alcohol.. intense..

weird.. scary.. backstabbed.. guessing.. betrayed.. cant tell 8feb from 27jan

FML

There's this saying: Hot guys are not nice, Nice guys are all ugly and crappy.. Hot and nice guys are rare..
it's not that they are a endangered species.. it just doesn't pay to be nice.. of course not speaking of in monetary terms but srsly.. ask me to choose to be hot or nice? i rather choose hot. guys that are nice are simply taken for granted and after awhile.. things just dont work out for them.. what do they get at the end? wasted efforts? heartbreak much??

i hate being tested.. not just exams.. but put to test.. not that i don't believe in myself but more of what to do during the whole process.. however.. turn it around? i'm just another guy behind that table waiting to hit the buzzer with more than what of simon cowell..

I've been wanting to get right with God and today i did.. i did a proper quiet time with him.. and i felt so good :) but after awhile Xin Yi had to crush it with reality.. damn you woman! got so many things and now i'm not confident of getting PA.. there's so much to do.. and i ain't sure what to do.. gona write reflections.. ask for testimonials soon.. maybe by 1st feb..


i did my scedule for the month of Jan.. so.. i don't think i'd be available anytime soon.. but squeezable :)

felt terribly crappy in school.. i was so tempted to partial and go home just to sulk at my life.. but after coffee.. everything just started reverting back to normal.. i could get use to this.. but sadly.. i can descry that ima get throat inflamation due to the spamming of Chilli within the past 48hours.. like 10chilli padies, donno how many saucers of chilli sauce.. more chilli snacks and everything just revolves around.. maybe tmr.. i'll cut down.. i'll hit curry instead :DDD

so gonna decorate my tumble.. and im gonna study soon.. well.. i don have what it takes to talk to ppl yet.. BUT I KEEP DREAMING about that person.. YIKES! scary.. and some person aft donno what happen didnt reply alr.. i guess its a girl thing?

GYM TMR!!

Waiting for the day to get over..

recently i've been thinking alot abt some person.. but we never talk.. weird much..

toilet shot!

Time will hit you like a rock hurling from the top of a highest building.. it really hurts.. its nerve wrecking to know that you're one year older and new responsibilities closing deadlines and more exposure to the real.. harsh.. scary.. evil.. engulfing.. and the heirachy of all that just makes it look like a bigger monster..

i was so tired i overslept and i had to cab down in a mercedes to get to prac on time.. breakfast was so filling and satisfaction was.. *MUACKS* church was alright having concentrate on other ppl sleeping than the sermon. but it kept me awake.. the proceeds were bubble tea and home for ben 10 marathon on dad's bed..

went to da ban da ban and went to meet dombutt @ khatib and we cabbed down for the wedding dinner.. super awesome.. took many photos and had a really good time having dinner.. Nicholas was.. controlled.. i rmb the last wedding we went tgt i kinda flared at him for stuffing his face so much.. but.. today he was feeding me.. sharing with me.. i felt... OMG! WHO ARE YOU!!?? but it was really nice..

look at that vapour.. does he have nostrills or does he have nostrills of steel...

one last issue i wanna highlight is.. whenever a cute girl looks at me and smiles at me.. i have this natural reflex to look away in disinterest when i am NOT not interested.. i dont know if im shy? or i am just being stupid.. a sweet smile and i turn away.. immediately... regretted.. looked up and saw a disappointed face.. sighs.. not the first time.. but.. it sucks.. I realise from Jacelyn that Changyen is really interesting and i wanna know her soft side :) but.. confidence issues.. well.. *shrugs*


My new Years Resolution!

-Gain confidence with girls
-Study hard and maintain my GPA
-Talk to God and do memory verses
-Drive a car (pass TP)
-Sign on Air Force
 -settle down???

<3 DG!!!

 seph, jo, mo, gam, nick, lou, Gideon (DGL)

Iron: Honey, i thought we had alr ironed that out!


HAHAHAH!! ROFLTTM TM
laughing to myself while iron some retard spots that automatically crease on their own..

My Minds a mess my life's once again fallen short of perfection.. things are starting to crumble yet i have little will no need to mention strength to go about on my own.. i can say that i am struggling.. i could take the waterfalls, the white river, tight spaces of caves without worrying much about my legs.. but this time.. i fell short.. i messed up..

mornings came and a simple task of ironing my shirt could get me crappy.. (due to lack of sleep i suppose)
What did the iron say to the creased shirt?

kinda thought of it when i was ironing my shirt.. band practice followed and it wasnt very fantastic because i was just overwhelmed by the fatigue which was griping me. breakfast was on a lighter note, had COFFEE! thank God for that invention which as far as 1000AD those ethiopians chewed on these seeds for kicks which nearby yemen cultivated and roast the beans for brewing which was thought it would boost spiritual experience (maybe the high) Thank you arab for distribution!

well other than that snippet of random information.. Ching Kits wedding was unbelievably awesome.. at a point of time i could feel liquid welling into my eyes.. maybe the room was to warm till my eyes had to perspire.. all the usual packing and stuff and we went for the lunch reception.. which i am really proud to say i had a huge plate of salad and a small serving of pasta! healthy (y)  Had practice for tmr which i did not know why i was made to play?? went home shortly and just fell asleep in a snap!

despite being so tired skating till 5am.. Nicholas and i had a good talk and fun as usual.. i find its our thing to always shoulder each other.. i'm feel incredibly shitty.. got cheated by thunderhorse and someone who shares the same birthday.. feel so disappointed with the latter.. i think most of my misery is channeling from the fact that in just 1month and 7days time, i'm turning 19! i recall laughing at my sister and calling her a OLD hag.. as well as telling people i would commit suicide after 18.. i wasnt taught how to cope with age.. what to do.. even Jesus was a prodigy and an adult when he was a kid.. the rules still apply.. but what to do? OTOKKEI!!!